Well as this year is passed now...so let thx people...first of all thank to bhagwan ek saal or jinda rkhne ke liye...fir vikas hmesha mera sukh dukh ka saathi bney rhne ke liye...mere saath rone ke liye....mjhe smjhne ke liye...
Muskan choti ho fir b hmesha ye khne ke liye senior m always dere for uh...mjhe pyaar dene ke liye dhanyvaad..

Sehrish...hmesha mjhe smjhne ke liye na na khte hue bhi khub pyaar dene ke liye...mjhse hmesha jude rhne ke liye...mjhe bhy chije seekhane ke liye bht bht thx...
Tumne mjhe zindagi ki bhg chije seekhayi..

Nd last but uh cant be the least prerna....hmesha mjhse bina kch bdle me chahe pyaar dene ke lie...mjhe ye feel krwane ke liye ki mai akela ni hu bht bhy dhanyvaad...thx to be the part of my life

The real year

Hi..as a writer its my duty to write it today..more than this i just forced to write it today..
Ahhh....as 2018 is going on..let take a journey ..when 2017 was ending then in the month of December i got a very drastic change in my life...jo mera khud ka bnaya hua rishta 2 saal ka tha wo khtm ho gya tha so 2018 ki shruat hi maine akele ki...khud ki ladai khud hi ladni chalu kr di thi..
Fir lekin kch mahine baad life thodi akeli si lgne lgi ..fir us jeevan ke sathi jisko kch mahine pehle kho diya tha usey pane ka prayas kiya lekin prayas nakaam rhi..or shyd us bich maine usy b preshan kr diya...

So es saal maine bht chije kho diya bht nuksaan hua..mera..bht jaada...mai bht roya..bht kamjor ho gya mai...bht chije kho di...apna pyaar...wo insan kho diya jo mjhe khud se bhi jada pyaar krta tha...lekin sbse bda nuksan jo hua wo ye hua ki maine khud ko kho diya...maine ek hasta khelta insan kho diya..wo insan kho diya jiska sense of humour sbko khtrnak lgta tha...jo sbko hasata tha wo hsna bhul gya..jo khud pe bht bharosha rkhta tha usne khud pe bharosha rkhna chor diya..bht chije hui..jiski aankho me apne liye sbse jaada ijjat dekhta tha wha ijjat khoti hui dekhi..mai khtm ho gya...wo the kshitiz khtm ho gya...or en sbke liye mai khud jimmedar hu...arey bcha aap toh pyaar ho aap kbhi mera bura ni kr skte...i know...
Lekin kshitiz jrur khtm ho gya es saal...

Baki i learnt a lot this year...i learn ki pyaar mohmaya hai...kch ni hota h pyaar...yha aapka koi ni hai bs time aapka hona chahiye..wrna jo hua mere saath wo bhagwan b utar ke ni bta paate....
Lekin khair baad me jo hua end of year wo b ek chamtkaar tha...tum wapas aai..jiski mai umeed hi kho baidha tha...jis samay koi ni tha mere aas paas...sambhalne waala tumne aake sambhala...
Dekho kbhi ni kha lekin aaj khta b hu or manta b hu ki prerna tu sch me mjhse bht pyaar krti hai...tu sch me waisi h jaisi ladki maine kbhi chahi thi...lekin bs kch majbooriya hai...baki m thankful to god ki i have somebdy like uh in my life...

Baki year was too bad jst hope ek nya phase start ho life ka....

Bs m writing these 4 lines for the last time in my life..

 "Ki tere liye duniya chor di hai...
Ki tjhpe saans aa ke ruke.....
Mai tjhe kitna chahta hu...
Tu ye kbhi soch na skey"...

Baki i hope prerna uh will make afford to made this year a dream year to uh..bs tu mat chor ke jaio yr...

Baki haan i cnt wish any one new year bcz its a promise to men to men...hahaa...

Duos

Hi i want atleast  you guys to read this blog..nd i have the blog as the common platform to speak...

Yr mai bht preshan hu har traf se...bht jada....pta ni bhagwan ne kha la kr khada kr diya..hai...

Ek hai jo chahti ni pyar kru...ek h jo sirf ye chahti h m usse pyar kru...ek h jo mjhse baat tk ni karna chahti h ek h jo mere alawa kisi or se baat ni krna chahti...ek hai jisey sb kch diya lekin wo fir b alag jana chahti h ek h jisey kch ni deta fir b saath rehna chahti hai....
Ek h jo khti h tum usey defend kr rhay ho..or ek hai jo khti hai mai itna kr rhi hu or usne tumhe rota chor diya fir b tum mjhe khushi tk ni dete....
Ek khti h tum bimar ho itna aaj usne pucha tk ni or main ghar tk milne tk aai....lekin fir b tumhe khushi ni...toh ek hai khti h baat ni krni kch b ho jaye....

Dekho yhi jgah hai jha ho skta h tum dono ek hi chij pdh pao...sehrish ka toh fir b ni pta mjhe...par mai chahunga pdhay...bs dekho mai itna khna chahta hu mai bht bht dukhi hu..ye pura blog aansu aansu girte girte type kr rha hu...dono bs mjhe maaf kr do....mai kisi ko khush ni rkh skta hu..dono apni zindagi me khush rho bs...

Prerna m sorry...tu ne kch b galat ni kiya kch b ka means kch b ni...uh every time made me feel special yr...lekin mai tjhe like tk ni kr skta love toh bht dur hai..pta h q...qki duniya thukegi yr mjhpe tjhe psnd kr liya toh...wo log kya khenge yr jinko pyaar ka paath pdhaya hai maine..maine pyar kr liya yr...or mai thoda alag hu...kisi ke liye rhu ya na rhu...uske liye jrur hu esliye...schi mjhe psnd h aaj b rona uske liye in compare to kisi ke saath khush rehna....or yhi pyaar hota h or yhi seekha h or aisa hi pyaar paya b hai...yr aisa pyaar ni tha mera ki usko bhulu kbhi mai...bs....i know tjhe bht bura lg rha hoga tu bht ro b rhi hogi...esliye ye sb msg pe khne ki himmat ni hui..bt ya i dnt want to loose uh ever....even i also want to love uh..qki sch me tu krti thi itna jada h mere liye..mjhe har moment pe special feel hota h..but i cnt..bs smjh jaio...
Yr tere me koi kami ni...hai..even tu toh bilkul waisi hai jaisi gf kbhi maine sochi thi..too caring.. just perfect for me..Intellectual...smart..sweet..every Every uh have...mjhe smjhna...sb kch...lekin bs ni hoga yr..dekh na tu esliye roti h qki tu mjhse pyaar krti hai...or mai esliye rota hu bcz mai krna chahta hu lekin ni kr pata hu...tu bht achi h yr...or shyd main itna bimar hu esliye..aaj itna emotional ho rja hu..tu aaj mjhe dekhne ghar tk aa gyi...
Or sehrish tumse koi shikayat ni h lekin dukhi hu...bs thoda sa...or tumse bs haan kbhi baat ni krunga ye hai....tum bina khey b smjh jaogi sb...

In last tum dono meri lyf ke sbse khaas log ho...bs esliye tum dono se request h mai bht preshan hu bht jada so plz...dono..plz..
Dono ko pta h mai kis chij ki wajah se preshan hu so dono plz apni apni preshani solve kr de..

Be strong....

This life teaches uh a lot..maine b seekha ki koi kisi ka ni hota yha pe..har kisi ko apni ladai khud hi ladni pdti hai..yha pe..koi kisi ka saath ni deta hai...
Ek rishta bnta h bht promises kiye jate h bht respect di jati h ek dusre ko...bht pyaar hota h logo ke bich...fir wqt aata h situation bdlti hai...or wo log situation ke saath cope up ni kr pate or fir rishta bigdna chalu ho jata hai..or fir daur shuru hota h ek dusre ko dis respect krne ka...ye khne ka promises ab ni rhay kya ho gya...pyaar tha ab ni rha kya ho gua...or fir wo khaas rishta aam bn jata hai..fir nafrat kr baidhte h wo ek dusre se...or ye khani sb ki hai...

So guys dukhi mt hona kch galat ho rha h toh ye smjhiye ye part h us ache rishte ka jo aapne nibhaya hai...be strong ...or smbhaliye apne rishte ko....or dobara se chije shi kriye...

Ha strong rhna aisi situations me muskil hota hai...baki prerna(she is my very very good............uh cant name every relation) i definately mention uh the way uh help me to become again strong....i became that kshitiz once again jst caz of uh...i m lucky that i have somebdy like prerna jisne mjhe help ki dobara se...khade hone ko...

Bt uh cant be lucky like me...so motive of this blog is to be strong nd positive in every situation.....

13 Dec 2018

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Dream shatters

I read it somewhere ki jiske saath AAP apne ache moments share krte ho uh Shud share the bad moments with them also...
So here I m sharing with my readers...

Yes my dreams shatters...my dream is broken..yes it is the worst moment in my life...yes I m upset ...but koi ni I accept the fact...maine mehnat ni kri thi toh ye toh hona hi tha...in last some months I changed my focus and here I have to pay....

Well this is nt the end of the world still there r people who have faith in me...so kch na kch kuch toh acha kr hi lenge...

Baki motto for writing this blog is..

1) jinko ab tk blog likh ke zindagi ke bare me btaya h apni success ke bare me btaya hai unhe Apne failure ke bare me b btana chahiye....or wo b tb toh jrur JB ye aapki life ka sbse bda failure hi...

2) dreams broken so obviously life ki sbse buri chij Hui so...this writing will help me to cry...

3) ab ye ni PTA ki aage life me kya hoga..aage kya krunga..ya aage kya hga..bt let see...bht muskil se khush rhna seekha h fir se..toh koshish krenge jari rhay...


Baki all the best to everyone ki aapke dreams pure ho qki jb dreams tutte wo b ek saal ni 2-2 saal wo b tb JB uske saath oro ke b dream Jude ho toh..wo shyd hurt se bht Jada hota hai..

Thank uh note

Hey first of all it's very important to say thx to the people who stand with me in this recent bad time..when I was emotionally very weak...meri sbse kamjor nas pe problem aai thi qki nd that is my father ..
Thank uh...Ashu,Atul,shivani,bhumika,muskan,
Vikas,gulshan,aadi, and last but obviously not the least uh yaah uh ..#prerna#....

U guys always only a call away from me..not even call but only miscall...na yaah uh..uh was dere for let me off my all frustration....raat bhar JB Mai depressed hua uh was awake for let me feel motivated...so thank uh will be a small word for this...uh don't know what uh did for me...so obviously I can write a blog for uh ..uh know meri aadat h Mai Insan Ko tb hi judge krta hu ki JB Mai weak hu tb kon kon h mere saath....and literally ye meri life ka sbse weak point tha..sbse Jada weak...nd uh stood firmly there for me....

But this is not only the reason for the blog ..the main reason started from today's morning...
The seducing msg sent from ur side ..."let change your mood"...this msg come up with a smile on my face ..and whatever happen after that..it was only a dream come true for me...
How beautifully uh planned the whole day...uh planned a every single minute of day...uh know I got everything in a single day whatever I like In my life...

The chilled morning scooty ride...then watching standup comedian together ...that Baghwan movie wala was awesome...then chicken Briyani...then hookah....(the love)..Usme b brain freezer flavour ..then table tennis game ..that dinner in the afternoon....then emotional songs..and in the evening that walk...

Everything was perfectly planned...PTA h tumne jitne ache tarike se day Ko plan Kiya tha Mai itne ache trike se likh b ni paya..

I don't know kitne months Baar Mai apni life me itna hsa hu ki haste haste aankh se aansu aa Gye ..thank uh thank uh..so much for the day ..PTA h Mai khud Ko bht perfect smjhta tha kisi Ko special feel krwane ke mamle me...but uh fail me today...nd uh know I m very happy to being on the loosing side...

Or itna SB tumne Kiya bs qki kch Dino se mera mood off tha...tumne aaj itna bada ahsaan LGA diya mjhpe Mai chukaunga ..may be ye one of those days JB shyd Maine khud Ko bht special feel Kiya...

Yr Aisa bht km hota h JB koi ladki kisi ladke ke liye itna SB plan krey...tum page pe har chij ka list bna ke aai thi ki hum kitne bje kya krenge....I can never forgot this day in my entire life....

Nd yah uh change my mood .......

I have nothing more to say ...bs today I feel that I m very special ..I just want my all readers to make this blog most likeable blog ....
Thank uh thank uh.....bs last me ek chij khunga...aaj ke day Ko dekh ke perfect shabd Ko b Sharm aa jaegi...

My father

Hey this blog is for my all reader....to my all reader..plz pray for my father...he is nt well ..plz pray ki wo thik ho jaye...

Aaj mere se kisi ne kaha ki logo se dua krwau jldi behter honge...aaj kha gya kch likhne Ko es bare me...kisi Apne ne kha kch likhne Ko....Lekin bs JB baat papa ki aati h toh Mai kch Ni kr pata...bs AAP SB se aap dua kr Lena papa ke liye bs...

http://kshitizexperience.blogspot.com/2018/11/the-final-one.html

The last blog(may be)

The final one.....

Ahhh...sometimes in life uh have to take those desicion...which uh never want to take...but u r forced to take those desicions...
I m in too dillemma in my life right now...chije day by day khrab hi Hoti gyi..or aaj khud ki chije khrab hone ka reason Mai khud Ko Maan rha hu...Mai Maan rha hu ki Mai reasons hu chijo ke khrab hone ka...Khair ab mera maanna na maanna SB ek hai...aaj Lekin khud se promise Kiya hai ki pehle wala kshitiz bnna hai...pehle wali chije krni hai....or koshish krni hai khush rkh sku sbko....

Ye most probably mera last blog h life ka..until unless kch bht important ho...so aaj kisi se koi shikayat Ni...

Qki aaj life ki Kyi sachai Bhari batey sunne Ko Mili...chije dekhne Ko Mili...kisi or Ko selfish keh ke last me khud Ko selfish paya...duniya Ko Shi raste pe laane wala Mai aaj khud hi Shi raste pe Ni aa pa rha hai...ab Lekin kisi se koi shikayat Ni hai....sbki jitne bhi log h meri life me...unke duara ki Hui chijo ke liye thank uh..nd meri taraf se sry...

Baki ek nayi dost aai h zindagi me...jo mera khyal rkhti hai..jo Mai rota hu toh saath roti hai...aapka Dil se thx...shyd AAP Na hote toh Na Jane Abhi kya hota mera...aapka ahsaan zindagi bhar Ni bhulunga...aapne mujhe us samay sambhala jis time mere saath koi khada Ni reh paya...

Baki kisi ke Dil me agr mere liye kuch Gilley shikwe ho toh maaf krna...aaj life ke ek Nye stage me kadam rkhne ja rha hu fir se life ke saath kch nya...kch alag krne ja rha hu so AAP logo ke dua ki zruat pdegi...

Love uh all....my readers...for the love uh had given me....

And ya in the last but obviously never be the least...it's for uh... whenever uh will any sort of help u r always welcome....aapne sach me ahsaan h mjhpe bht....

Bubbye....will try my fingers now to not write anything ...

Plz give me enough strength

Sometime in life aap itne problem me hote hai..itne preshan hote hai..ki bs aap chahte ho ki koi aaye or bs aapke kandhe pe ek tap krke puche ki kya ho gya...dnt wry sb thik ho jaega...bs itna kehna wale ho...

Or problem or shikayat sirf bhagwan se hai ki itni problem ek saath q de di saath...q life me wha la kr khada kr diya h ki jha se ray of hope nazar hi ni aa rhi...itni choti age me itni bdi zimmedariya ni nibhayi jati hai...

Kch ni kr pata hu esliye bs blog likh ke khud ko sukoon pahucha leta hu...bs ek saathi h lekin wo saathi khud hi dikkat me hai....usse saath lene me dil selfish sa lgta hai...bs jo b padhey plz mjhe pity feel mt krwana puch ke...bs upar wale se dua kr lena..ki mjhe takaat de en situations se ladne ka..

Sb thik ho jaega i know....

Qki mjhe hi thik krna h sb..

Dnt know whats happening

Sometimes we feel that we r going through life most bad phase and in the present time of my life m feeling the same thing...bt life is incomplete with out the problems..so whenever u r in problem just be chill...
And dnt wry if uh have to face these problems all alone..koi ni upar wala sb dekhta hai...

Nd whoever is reading this post plz ye mt pray krna ki meri jo b problems wo thik ho jaye plz ye pray krna ki bhagwan mjhe takaat de enhe face krne ki..yesterday was one of the worst day of my life....

Itna bura ki kisi karan se kl mjhe 5 bje tk jaagna pda..nd thank uh mere saath itni der tk jagne ke liye..mjhe har wqt pump up krne ke liye...well just keep yourself motivated this all i want to say to my readers

Best ever written

Hey m feeling very good when i think that i shud write something for uh.

Heyeah sehrish..you know one thing we had a great time together...jo hum dono se koi nhi chin skta..sehrish life ka kch ni pta hota...kb kya ho jaye...lekin hume strong rehna chahiye har wqt..hum kisi karan ki wajah se alag hue...chije khrab hui bht chije hui..lekin ek chij aaj b achi h ki..meri likhi hui chij tum aj b excited ho ke pdhti ho..mai b tumhare blog me dundhta hu ki kon si line achi likhi h..kon si line mere bare me hai..aaj b jb mjhe kch hota hai toh tumhe tension hoti hai...or tum khaas b deti ho toh mjhe tension ho jati hai...hum aaj b ek dusre ko batna ni chahte...mjhe ni pta ye sb kya hai...agr ye sb pyar hai...toh mjhe sharm ni ati ye kehte hue ki haan mjhe toh pyar hai...

Sehrish tum khti ho na tum intellectual nhi ho lekin maine toh hmesha es bodam ladki se hi pyar kiya hai...mjhe kya kha ab blame krna bnd kro...sehrish dnt wry na kbhi kisi ke aage tumhe galat saabit hone diya hai or na hi kbhi hone dunga..

Or haan ab schi bs esliye dur jana h qki jaan mai bht thak gya...maine apni zindagi ke important 8 months esme diye hai...lekin kch b acha ni hua balki khrab hi hua h..so bs frustrated ho gya hu bs esliye m saying ki i quit...wrna tum kya ho mere liye wo mjhe kisi ko prove krne ki jruat ni hai..

Aap kehte ho na dil me nhi rhi chije ab ...toh i respect your feelings toh mai aaj aapko wo chij de rha hu jo aapko chahiye..bs ap khush rehna hmesha...

Sehrish i still missing ki tum subah ghar se niklti thi or mjhe call krti thi ki ab nikal rhi hu yha ja rhi hu or fir ghar wapas jate time msg krti thi...wo b chehre pe ek smile ke saath...khusbi khushi saari chije btati thi...mjhse puchti thi kshitiz ye kr lu..ye kr lu...mjhe cold tk hota tha toh itna preshan ho jati thi jaise mjhe cancer ho gya ho..toh sehrish mere liye bhi toh ye chije precious thi...sirf mai tumhari adat ni tha tum bhi meri aadat thi..
Tum toh keh deti ho aa kr har baar ki maine tumse bht pyaar kiya hai...kbhi us charm wale kshitiz ke bare me socha hai jisko front gate se back gate pe jane me 40 min lg jate thay...jo life me kisi ko koi value ni deta tha..us insan ne tumse kitna pyaar kiya hai..usne kitni hi koshish ki tumhe special feel krwane ki..usne kaise pichle saal 19nov ko tumhe jbrdsti tradefair le ke gua tha...usne kaise anniversary pe tumhare liye chije plan ki thi tumhare psnd ki har chij wo leke aaya tha tumhare liye...kaise sirf tumhari zidd puri krne ke liye ice skating krwayi...toh ab socho us charm wale insan ne kitna pyar kiya hoga tumse...aaj b wo tumhare saath tumhara admission krwane gya tha..job pe frst day gya tha...toh socho kitna pyar maine kiya hoga...ha plz ye mt smjhna maine chije ginwayi..lekin haa maine b bht kiya..bs ab ni rha sch me kch bhi...koi ni bt tum fir b khaas rhogi hmesha....

M sorry for my every mistake...what i did..haan bs sch me chaha tha kbhi maine ki hum dono fir se saath ho jaye...fir se sari chije pehli jaisi ho jaye nhi hui koi ni..

Just listen sehrish ansari this kshitiz ranjan loved uh a lot...this speaker love a lot shayara...

Ab nhi rhi schi dil me wo chije uska reason kch tum ho...shyd thoda mai or shyd wqt bhi...haan ptani q aaj b dil dukh jata jb tum jhut bol deti ho(aapko toh pta hi h jhut se kitni nafrat hai mjhe)

Khair meri zindagi bht acha time thay tum bht chije khrab kri h tumne(blame smjho ya kch bhi) lekin usse khi jada pyaar kiya tumne mjhse esliye tumhe mai hmesha achi memories me hi yaad krunga...

Tum jha b rho khush rho or dnt wry mai toh khush reh hi lunga ..dil me bs ek chij ka malal rhega sch me...ki breakup ke baad maine itni koshish kri chije shi krne ki lekin meri sehrish ne mera ek baar saath ni diya chije shi krne me....koi ni...

Chlo lo safar khtm ho gya ab...

 Kch lines for uh..qki meri kamjori h ki mai aaj b sirf tumhare liye hi likh skta hu...

"Wo ungli bdi sharmayi thi jb esne unko chua tha...
Wo ladki bht ghabrayi thi jb usey mjhse pyar hua tha...
Thodi sehmi si thi ...jb wo es khubsoorat safar me sang mere aai thi..
Gussa-pyar...barish dhup sb usne sang jhelha tha...
Paisa na hone par, bhuk nhi h aisa usne kha tha...
5 momos ke khatir metro card bechne ye babu chla gya tha...
Bche ke khatir pendent bhi ye le aaya tha...
Apne gulaab ko ye aksar gulaab dene lg gya tha...
Wo deewani b apna sb kch luta gyi es deewane pe...
Paglo ki trah pagal bnti rhi wi es deewane ki...


Phir wo ghadi aati hai..
Mjhse alag hone ko kha jata hai. Saanse ruk jati hai....
Wo bhi roti hai...mai bhi rota hu..lekin us din bhi hmesha ki trah mai hi jeetta hu...

Dheere dheere bcha babu shona ki khani khtm hone lgti hai...
Deewana fir se ek koshish krta hai...
Lekin na jane q deewani es baar bht dar si jaati hai...


Aaj deewani thodi bdal si gyi hai...
Lekin ye dewaana aaj b usey khaas hi smjhta hai..

Deewana fir se khoyi hui ungliyo ko pana chahta tha .
Apna haath khi tikana chahta tha ...
Bs fir se deewana bn jana chahta tha....


Khair its always loving to write something for uh ...bye...have a nyc life ahead...

Nothing to say

You know this sort of mail means a lot to me...or aaj toh bht dino baad tumne mjhe koi khushkhabri sunai apne bare me...papa thik ho jaenge or behter ho jaenge jldi hi...

Or tumne aaj request kri blog likhne ko so m writing this...bs mai itna hi khna chahunga tumhara ye mail mere liye bht important hai...mere liye bht matter krta hai...mere liye ye matter krta h ki jo insan kbhi kisi ke liye kch ni krti thi aaj wo mere liye itni mehnat kr rhi hai...papa ki tbyit khrab hone ke babjood bhi..mere cat ke exam me meri help kr rhi ho..meri english(jo sbse bda drd h mere cat me)..usey imporve krne ke liye roz search kr ke kch na kch bhejhti ho jisse mjhe exam me help miley..so its feel good...ki koi kr rha hai kch..baki congratulations papa or behter ho jaemge..nd aaj mood acha ni h so jada ni likh paunga...

Aap sb invited ho meri tariff krne ko

When you got this sort of mail from someone..you feel urself to be special one..aise hi rhay or aise hi meri tariff krte rhay aise hi mere bare me dua krte rhay..khushi hoti h tumhare aise mail pdh ke..or esko public krne ka ek hi reason h ki mere readers pta kr skey ki hmari b koi tarif krta hai..

Note:- ye kisi vyakti vishesh ke liye ni lgya gya hai

Anonymous writing(mtlb kch bhi😋)

Dil gusse me hai aaj...(ye statement aapne pehli baar suni hogi lekin aisa hota hai...aisa tb hota hai jb aap dil itna dukh gya ho ki ab jb pta chlta h ki dil dukh rha h toh khud pe gussa aata hai..ye whi phase hota hai)

Toh bs yhi hai..life ka present ka situation..khel ho gya h sb..ab chah kr b chije shi ni ho paengi...or na hi dil waisa rha hai ab..saala zindagi me bs ek match ho gya...kbhi jeet rha hu kbhi haar rha hu...

Khair life me aise phase me hu jha blog likhna sbse acha lgta h aisa lgta hai esse bda mera koi saathi nhi h..ye hai jo mjhe smjhta h ache se so bs esliye blog likh deta hu...haan ab logo ne cmnt krna chor diya h actually sbhi readers se request hai cmnt krey either it is positive or negative qki usse ek alag hi motivation milti h likhne ki..

Pta hai aaj life me ek chij realise hui kisi ko maaf krne se jaada  khushi kisi chij me ni milti..chahe kisi ne kitni hi bdi galti q na ki ho aap usey maaf kr do or bhul kr ek nya start kro..esse jada khushi kisi chij me ni milti...ab maine b logo ko maaf kr diya unki galtiyo ke liye...or khud ko acha lg rha hai..ab nind aati h ache se...

Hum humans ki khasiyat hai ki hume chijo se attachment hoti hai..logo se attachment hoti hai...kbhi es attachment hume khud ki kamjori ni smjhni chahiye qki hum humans bne hi kisi se attached hone ke liye hai...

Yakeen kijiye jo mza kisi ke na hone pr uske liye rone me aata hai wo mza kbhi uske hone ki khushi ke mze se kam nhi hota....rona kisi ke liye bdi chij hoti hai...or mere accordingl rona ek aisi chij hai jo insan ko insan bnaye rkhne me madad krti hai..

Nd last chij we shud have fear of the things what we r doing..dar hmesha rehna chahiye dil me chijo ka...so guys kamjor bney...jrur roye. .insan ko insan smjhay...ek time ka phase mt smjhay ki nikal jaega...or apne karmo se jrur darey..

Baki mai hmesha pyar ke bare me likhta hu toh pyar jrur krey...pyar manushya ki bnayi hui wo pratima hai jo anant hai..jiska koi end nhi hai....hum esko anubhav kr chuke hai bht hi acha hota hai...lekin ye dhyan rkhna esme end me kasht b bht hai or wo b aapko hi jhelne honge...mai khush hu ki maine esko dono phase already dekh liye😑

Note:- kbho bhi motivation ki kami lgey kisi b chij ke liye toh jrur sampark krey...

Bad time fade away

Amm...sometimes i just need ki mai kch likh du..sometimes i feel like there is nothing better in this world rather than writing..

Life is not a game guys...jiska jb dil aata hai chla jata hai jb dil aata hai aa jata..well everything happens for a good reason..
Well prerna uh used to send me mails which i thing became too necessary for me nowadays....so plz keep sending them..

Everybody came to me and say that you are strong enough to handle any situation...even some says me fighter...i dont know that either i m strong or not but no bdy has the right to let me feel down...

Well leavinh this apart actually its reply to ur mail...what uh said that m ur pillar..no dear....the thing uh came as positive energy in my life..uh once again lighten up my dull life...kisi ko nhi psnd aata akela rehna its human tendency...

Tere papa ki tbyit thik ni hai..lekin uh know one thing unhe kbhi b maine apne papa se alag smjha hi ni. So unhe toh thik hona hi pdega...

Today uh came to me nd said that uh will die agr unhe kch ho jata hai toh...toh ab toh mere paas koi option hi ni bcha...ab unhe kaise bhi thik krna hi pdega...nd one more thing be strong esliye ni ki mai auro ki trah bs ye khunga sb thik ho jaega balki esliye ki "mai hu na...mai sb thik kr dunga...kaise i dont know..but have some faith on me...ki mai papa ko kch ni hone dunga..i promise.."....or aaj toh aunty ko b ye promise kr diya maine...

Tu toh meri motivation hai yr...jb mere apne khaas logo ne mera bilkul saath chor diya..mjhe bilkul akela chor diya..tb tu ne mjhe sambhala hai..tu ne mjhe motivate kiya zindagi ko or behter tarike se jeene ke liye...abi toh bht kch seekhna hai tere se yr...

Prerna mai beshak mai tjhse age me thoda sa bda hu...lekin mjhe bda teri bato ne hi kiya hai..mai kaise bhul jau ye whi ladki hai ki jb meri tbyit khrab thi toh 4 bje raat tk sirf mera man behlane ke liye mjhse baat krti thi....
Mai ye kaise bhul jau...ki jb mere 12th ke boards thay tu raat bhar bs esliye jaagi rhti thi ki khi mai na so jau...

Mjhe khi subah jana hota tha toh tu usse aadha ghanta pehle uth jati thi ki khi mera wo important kaam miss na ho jaye..tu aadha ghanta pehle uth ke mjhe uthati thi...

Mai kaise bhul jau sirf mjhse milne ke liye subah 5 bje morning walk pe aa jati thi..mjhe khana bnana sikhati thi...
Or jb aaj hmare papa ki tbyit khrab h toh mai agr kch kr rha hu toh wo ahsaan nhi ho skta...

Zindagi me bht time baad mili ho ye b ni pta kb tk rhogi ni rhogi..kya hoga aage ni pta so kr lene do...or dont wry mai tumhari wajah se preshan nhi hu...balki tumne toh usse samay mjhe thama jb mai bht preshan tha.   Or agr aaj preshan hu b toh tu ne itni energy de di h ki i can handle that....

Ha life ne mjhe personally bht kch sikhaya h pichle kch months me nd mai obviously usko carry forward krunga apni entire life ke liye.. Obviously un experience ne mera behavior for entire life change kr diya hai but koi ni..on every single second of ur life uh keep learning the things ...so i m still learning a lot from past....

Baki it was the reply of your todays mail..which uh send to me..yha esliye likh deta hu ki thode paise mil jate hai...

Baki keep smiling always..and dnt worry i will be always with uh whenever uh need me..

A nyc day

Hey its always being nyc time with uh..its on ur demand m writing something abt today..uh know its alwz nyc meeting to uh..uh alwz let me feel completed ..but uh know onething once again today uh gave me lot of positivity...lots of motivation..
We had a good bond...nd we have a good bond..nd dnt let urself be weak...or rone ka department mera h so let me cry...


Nd its really very specl ki jis chij ko tumne aaj se aaj se around 5 saal phle kha tha ki mai es ko faik dungi or mjhe yakeen tha ki faik dogi aaj tum us chij ko sambhal kr layi thi...

Uh know bht km log h es duniya me jo mjhe smjhte h nd uh r one of them...uh know mai duniya ko advice deta hu...but tumse advice leta hu...or tum mjhe hmesha motivate krti ho chijo ke liye...kshitiz ranjan ko The kshitiz ranjan bnne me help krti ho..
Today uh again motivate me for my cat....or jin logo ko galat smjh rha tha unhe shi smjhne ka way b dikhaya...uh know life me bht prblms hoti h sbke tunhare b hai mere b h...or shyd sbke hi hoti h..bt i just wanna thank uh and that atleast i got a support system in form of uh..sometimes life changes very gradually..whatever today i m..uh had a great role in that ..nd ya its not show off ki mai ye sb likh rha hu its just m being emotional that uh came at the right time...meri toh qki kbhi koi himmat hi ni ho pati fir se call krne ki .

Pta h tumhare aate hi sb kch aankho ke samne aa gya...bs ab jaada kch ni h khne ko..or ha tumhari poem sch me achi thi..qki bht km logo ne mere liye likha h nd i know ki kisi ke liye koi poem likhna kitna muskil or kitni bdi baat hoti h..qki maine bhi bht likhi h...

I dont what relation we have...but whatever it is...its very unique....nd yaah uh sing very well...baki as uh know i dont like or believe in publisity of anything...so m writing these kind of stuffs for the last time...
Baki mjhe aise hi khushiya dete rhte...

Uh was u r nd u will.....spcl....
Nd ya last but not the least thx for the poem uh had written...


Nd i hope uh remember these lines..

"Kch es tarah teri palke meri palko se mila du.....""

Happy diwali

First of all a very happy diwali to all. This festival is always very close to me...but this year it come up with more happiness...

Koi bht khaas rutha hua saathi wapas aa gya...yes u r...uh know teri wajah se mere 12th me km marks aaye thay...but still i love my 12th class most..

 Ur voice alwz meant a lot to me...pta h fone change ho gya wrna wo recording teri voice aaj b rhti mere paas...

Nd tears doesnt suits uh...ye mjhpe hi behter lgte h...

Pta h logo ne mjhe bht compliment diya h ki like " if today m speaking like this or writing then kshitiz u r the reason behind that...juniors ne b kha bhaiya aap se bolna likhna apna stand lena bht kch seekha h bht logo ne compliment diya h.."

Now its my turn..uh know u r the reason that i can speak in front of anyone..that i can write today...logo ne mjhse seekha ya ni nhi pta lekin maine tjhse bht kch seekha tha...jb mai 12th me tha i used to learn ki kaise koi dosti nibhayi jati h...nd bla bla..

Haan hmare bich bht chije khrab hui bht jada but still tjhse seekha tha aaj b apna rha hu...still remember ur words "koi rishta kitna hi khrab q na ho jaye...usey chorna nhi chahiye...usme saans bharte rhna chahiye...or haarna toh bilkul ni chahiye"

Exact yhi lines thi na...

"Pta h these r the lines jo mjhe haar nhi manne deti thi...haan life me kyi bht khaas jgaho pe haar bhi gya bht baar...dukh b haar ka lekin koshish bht ki thi maine..."

Khair a literall very happy diwali to uh..

Chije jitni marji khrab ho gyi ho hmare bich lekin jb tu ne us din bhi mere papa ko uncle na keh ke yhi pucha ki "papa kaise h " toh lga bond kbhi ni khtm hota h bs uspe ek ice jm jati h usey todni hoti h..

Pta h my close ones  know that i loved my father a lot ..but they dont know the reason y i loved him a lot..mjhe b ni pta tha ki mai q krta hu..but then i realised ki q krta hu...

The reason is "bcz uh loved ur father a lot"(this statement is enough to prove that how important uh was to me).

People loves me today

They admire me..

They take lots of things from me...

And without any dought i can say ye kshitiz naam ke computer ki programming toh tu ne hi ki thi...beshak baad me file ko format kr diya ho...lekin sirf tjhe lga ki wo delete ho gya bt wo toh recycle bin me chla gya tha...

Well lakshmi ka nhi pta lekin es diwali mere ghar krishna jrur aaye h...

    " Welcome back.." 

My sprite partner....

Nd ya waiting for ur next song...

Happy birthday hira

Hey a very happy birthday to uh my dear...first of all I want to share a very important and real thing..
Agr bday ki baat ki jaye toh ab tk agr mjhe koi date yaad rhi h ya kisi date ka maine besabri se intzar Kiya hai toh wo 2 dates this first 13 April and second 10 may...but schi mjhe es Baar 22 October's ka b bht wait tha...so I think it is enough to prove how important this bday wish is for me ..

U know what bday pe log samne wale Insan ki taarif kr dete hai...but Mai yha ahsaan ginwana chahunga...
Mere liye Hira Rehman ki 2 personality h..

1. Clg ki starting se leke may 2018
2. May 2018 se leke aaj ki date tk..

May 2018 se phle we spend almost 3.5 years together(42 months)..but uh know after may to October these 6 months have more value than those 42 months...

In real we became friend rather than only Facebook friend....hey being very emotional u r really very special for me...qki mjhe jhel Lena har ek ke bas ki baat ni h..tu ne mujhe 6 mahine jhele unke liye thanks...

Uh all guys are gems of my life....I earlier said nd m saying it again uh guys made kshitiz Ranjan to the kshitiz Ranjan...so thank uh for the entire time uh wasted on me...

Nd as I know uh cause of sehrish...so a very special thanks from both of us ..we both spend 2 yrs together but u r the one who always added star to our beautiful relationship....the speakayara(speaker+ shayara) will alwz remember uh whenever they will talk abt their unsuccessful story...uh will alwz be in the lead role whenever this story will recite...

Agr Mai veer Zara ka sharukh Khan or wo Preity Zinta hai toh Rani Mukherjee tu hi hai....

Mai tjhe fone krke khta hu Hira ye ho gya...Hira Mai preshan hu or tere paas koi jawab ni hota fir b tu sunti hai...Mai tere se aise sawal krta hu jinka mjhe pta hota h tere paas koi jawab ni h..Lekin tu fir b mjhe sunti h....Mai rota hu toh saath roti h....mera Dil rone ka krta hai toh tu mjhe rone deti hai..mera gussa b seh leti hai...or mjhe pta h ki tu smjhdar nhi hai fir b dekh na kitna Bharosa krta hu ki apni zindagi ke Sabse important Insan ki dekhbhall ki uska khyal rkhne ki zimmedari tjhe hi de ke gya hu...

I can't define our relationship but I want ki in this world every relationship Shud be like this only....

And one more thing sehrish Shud also be thankful to uh ki tu ne mujhe sambhala JB koi ni tha Sambhlne wala....

Mjhe pta nhi Mai kitne or din tum logo se Baat krunga Lekin uh dont wry tu hmesha Dil ke karib rhegi....


I think this is enough to let uh feel that how important u r to me....once again very happy bday....be blessed...and ya enjoy it day...nd sry nt to be the part of ur party I know uh will definately miss me..

Difference of love

Today i want to share a moral from hindu mythological story...
This is the story of the lord krishna and radha...
कृष्ण और राधा एक जन्म में मतलब पहले जन्म में एक दूसरे से प्यार करते है लेकिन किसी कारण वश किसी के श्राप से उनका प्यार सफल नही हो पाता है और उन्हें अलग होना पड़ता है तोह ऐसी स्थिति में राधा अपना देह त्याग देती है इस वचन के साथ कि हम अगले जन्म में फिर से साथ होंगे और तब अपने इश्क़ को मुक्कमल करेंगे लेकिन वो साथ ही ये शर्त रखती है कि मैं अपनी आंखें तब तक नही खोलूंगी जब तक मेरी आँखों के सामने तुम न हो और इस वचन के साथ वो मृत्यु को प्यारी हो जाती ह अगले जन्म में राधा का जन्म कृष्णा से पहले होता है लेकिन जन्म के पश्चात भी उनकी आंखें नई खुली होती है।
क्योंकि ये वचन होता है तोह निभाना तोह था ही।श्री कृष्णा का जब जन्म होता है तोह वो राधा के सामने जाते है तोह तब  जा के राधा की आंखे खुलती है लेकिन राधा कृष्ण को पहचआन नही पाती की ये मेरे पहले जन्म का प्यार है। लेकिन कृष्ण को सब याद था 16 साल तक कृष्ण उनका ििइंतजआर करते रहते है उनके लिए ही बासुरी बजाते है और भी बाकी चीजे करते है।

अब आते ये कहानी सुनाने का उद्देशय क्या था। वो ये था कि इंसान ने भगवान को इसलिए बनाया ह की वो उनको फॉलो कर सके।
इस कहानी से एक चीज जो मैं समझना चाहता हु वो ये है कि कभी एक लड़के और एक लड़की का प्यार एक नही हो सकता। दोनो कभी भी एक ही तरीके से एक दूसरे से प्यार नही कर सकते है ।और नही कोई कम ओर कोई ज्यादा होता क्योंकि अगर राधा का देह त्यागना प्यार था तोह 16 वर्ष राधा का ििइंतजार करना कृष्ण का प्यार था।
हमारा समाज काम के हिसाब से विभाजित हुआ है तोह इसीलिए प्यार में दो लोगो की अलग अलग ज़िम्मेदारी होती हैं कभी भी ये कहन कि मैंने ऐसा किया तोह तुमने ऐसा क्यों नही किया ये गलत सवाल है। एक समझदार इंसान को ये समझना पड़ेगा दोनो अलग अलग लोगो की अलग अलग ज़िम्मेदारी होती ह ओर उन्हें वो ही निभानी चाहिए।
अगर एक लड़की के लिए प्यार ये हो सकता है कि वो ये बताये की उस लड़के पे कोन से कापड़े अचे लग रहे है तोह उस लड़के के लिए ये भी प्यार हो सकता है कि वो ये बताये की उसे किस्से बात करनी चाहिए या नही

अगर एक लड़की के लिये ये प्यार हो सकता है कि रोड क्रॉस करते टाइम वो ये उम्मीद करें कि वो लड़का उसका हाथ पकड़े तोह शायद उस लड़के के लिए भी ये प्यार हो सकता है कि वो ये पूछे कि वो कहा है क्या कर रही है।

लड़के का प्यार लड़की की केअर से लेकर शुरू होने से उसकी जरूरत पूरी करने तक होता है जबकि एक लड़की का प्यार उस लड़के को सपोर्ट करने से लेकर के उसे समझने और रिशेत में प्यार बनाये तक होता है।। और इसमें किसी का भी काम छोटा बड़ा नही है ये काम इसलिए ऐसे है क्योंकि इन कामो को यही बेहतर कर सकते है
इसीलिए एक लड़के का ओर एक लड़की का प्यार कभी भी एक जैसा नही हो सकता है।
एक रिश्ता अगर कभी खराब होता ह तोह अगर खराब करने में दोनों ज़िम्मेदार होते है तोह ठीक भी दोनों की ज़िम्मेदारी से ही होगा।। 

Note:- its my individuals opinion uh can differ from this nd ye kisi individual ko dhyan me rkh ke nhi likha gua.. aaj mere paas kisi ki demand aai thi ki es chij pe likha jaye bs esliye likha gya.

Be Happy in every phase of life

I was thinking about one question and that is...what is sucess?? Well defination of this term is very subjective...but still sucess is something through which in future uh shud be counted in the pages of past...

Actually it doesn't matter what is sucess...the procedure of getting to the success matters a lot...
When i go through the sucess story of successful person i found one thing common in that and that is...struggle..bad phase of life...
So bad phase is directly propotional to ur sucess...so whenever u r in that situation..."jha aap ye khne lgo bhagwan mere sath hi aisa q" toh aap khush ho es chij se ki shyd sucess aane wali hai...uh shud go and celebrate ..it .

M going through very bad phase lekin ab mai subah uth kr bhagwan se ye nhi khta ki bhagwan sb thik kr do...bs khushi khushi unse puchta hu or kha h meri sucess...qki maine toh dekh liya bht dukh...

We r human beings...we can won, we can loose, we can be happy, we can be sad but we r not allowed to say ki sb bura mere sath hi ho rha h or uske baad ye keh dena ki kismat hi achi ni h meri its the biggest mistake...

Actually according luck is nothing more than probablity...it today its in some others favour...den wait ur turn will also come...but insan itna intellectual ho chuka h ki jb kch bura hota h toh khta h mera luck khrab tha or jb us luck ki wajah se kch acha hota h toh usey apni mehnat ka naam de deta...
"Stop giving excuses to urself...enjoy ur bad phase and just prepare for the sucess...."

First achievement

This one for the google and google + team...
Thank uh for liking my blog that much...
And a heartful thanks for paying me 30$(around 2000 rupees) for my blog...as in monthly salary...nd thank uh for giving me the promise in future dere will be increment in amount...first time i paid for my writing so its very special moment for me...nd even i dont know that people will like my writing that much...bcz i used to write up my personal things...but as uh mentioned in your mail that i shud continue the writing in my own style..so i will do the same...thank you and m promising uh in future i will come up with more blogs....

A msg to all

When we talk abt time...den i think we shud give lots of respect to time ....maine itni choti si age me bht phases change hote hue dekh liye life ke..
Ek wo time tha when i used to be at the top of my world ...or aaj samay sath ni h toh...khud ko sbse niche pata hua dekhta hu..
Lekin insan ko kisi b pal haar nhi maanni chahiye or agr aap kl behter thay ..achay thay ...toh sbse phle aapko khud ko or uske baad samaj ko ye yakeen rkhna chahiye ki jo kl behter tha wo aaj b behter hi hoga...bs dekhne ka najriya bdliye. .pichle kch samay mai khud ko bht kamjor helpless sa lgta tha...lekin ab sthithi bht behter h..
2 din phle mai apni family ki problem se gujar rha tha ..lekin us samay maine khud ko jb strong bnaye rkha toh mjhe khud ko ek purana kshitiz dekhne ko mila ..toh khushi hui khud ko waise dekh....
Baki its a msg to all readers...agr aap insan ho toh aap galti kroge hi....lekin agr aap insan ho toh aapka farz h ki aap un galtiyo ko shi kro ...
Meri age 22 h..es age me we all live in a charismatic world jha hum sb kch perfect chahte...bt dear perfection is the most illustic word of this world ...so i also made a mistake....or wo aisi mistake shyd uske impact se mai apni zindagi ki sbse precious chij kho baidha...obviously dukh h..khone ka bt aap sb ko bs ek advice h ki if uh love someone...badly...den dont leave that person only on the basis of ki samaj kya khega...dost kya khenge...mera religion permission deta...meri family kya sochegi...
Ha ek hadd tk ye chije important hoti h lekin jb ek insan khud ki khushi ko ye soch ke chor deta h toh wo aage na kbhi khud khush reh pata h na kisi ko khusbi de pata h..
" Jb aapki tbyit khrab hoti h...toh wo smaaj aa ke aapse bht pyar se nhi puchta ki babu kya ho gya...wo smaaj doctor ke paas na jane se aapse nhi ladta h...wo samaaj ko dukh ni hota jb aap fever me hote ho...."
"Wo dost aapke sath ni hote jb wo jealousy ya competition ke chakkar me aapko hi chor dete h...wo dost aapke sath ni hote jb aapki jeb me kisi ko momos khilane ke paise ni hote...wo dost saath ni hote jo aapke liye khana ni khata din bhar ki ssath me ek samosa or ek mountain dew ek hi straw se peene ka mauka milega...wo dost kandha nhi dete h jb aapko ek kandhe ki jruat hoti h rone ke liye ."
"Jb family ki expectations or aapki expectation alag alag track pe hoti h toh aapko samjhne wali family b ni hoti...jb family aapki jrurato ko ni smjhti toh ek insan sirf smjhta hai....family aapko white shirt gift me ni deti kbhi ki aap ki jb presidential debate ho toh aap wo pheno..family ni roti jb aap election ni lad pate ho. ..even family toh chahti hi ni kbhi aap wo kro jo aapka dil chahta h...ek hi toh insan hota h jo sirf aapke dil ki sunta h"
"Hahah religion...es shabd aaj b hasi aati h... History utha kr dekhta hu toh. .es religion ne hume batware ke alawa kch ni diya...es religion ne hume diffrentiate krna sikhaya do insan ke bich ..mai brahmin ho kr khud ko itna suoerior smjh baidha ki esi hosh me na rha ki upar jin jin chijo ki baat ki un sb ne mil kr mera wo mjhse cheen liya jo mjhe sb diya krta tha...jruat h aaj en sbse upar sochne ki .."
Esliye aap sb ko ek advice h...en sb chijo ki wajah se maine toh apni life ki sbse precious chij kho di aap mt khona...aisa ni h maine koshish ni ki...bht ki bht jada ki...jb smjh aai chije ki saala samaj family religion sbse upar h wo tb tk shyd mai kho chuka tha...koshish ki paane lekin na pa ska ..esliye bs aap sb wo galti mt krna jo maine ki...qki puri duniya me sirf or sirf ek ye hi rishta hota h jo hum khud bnate hai. .toh rishte ke liye ladai krna aakhir tk...or ladoge toh jeetoge...mai shyd apna rishta toh ni bcha paya lekin i will make sure ki agr mai kisi ka rishta bchane me madad kr sku....thank uh...plz ek intellectual insan ki trah meri baat ko smjhna esme kch b aisa ni h jo impractical ho ...

Getting motivation

Kyi Baar likhne se Dil Ko Sukoon milta hai..
Zindagi ek bht undefined rasta hota hai .kb kya ho jaye kch PTA Ni hota hai...ye samay bht bdi chij Hoti hai...Kyi Baar Hume Aisa b lgta h ki es zindagi me hmare Sath bht galat hua hai...or JB Aisa hota hai toh tut jate hai hum...pichle 5 months me mere saath b kch Aisa SA hi rha Jha Mai bht Baar tuta...bht Baar gira..bht roya...or en SB ka Karan jo tha wo maine kbhi sapne me b Ni socha tha..so uh Shud expect the unexpected things also...
Lekin bht seekha bhi...seekha ki zindagi me koi Ni hota hai kisi ka har ladai Insan Ko akele hi ladni pdti h or usey jeetna pdta hai .bs ye hota hai hum kmjor pd jate h JB apna bht khaas koi Sath chor deta hai toh Lekin koi Sath na ho fir b Hume ye zindagi ki ladai jaari rkhni pdti hai.  Hume har wqt khud Ko hrana pdta hai . Qki zindagi ne bne bht kch dikha diya en 5 mahine me esliye today m thank full to all those person specially to a person . Jisne mjhe bht kamjor Kiya es bich Bht giraya Lekin unki wajah se aaj khud Ko bht behter tarike se smjh paya hu...zindagi Ko bht behter tarike se smjh paya hu .  .
Ha bht dukh hota bht Jada dukh JB koi apna chor jata hai...bht dukh hota h JB koi apna aapko bilkul disrespect kr deta hai...bht dukh hota h .Lekin aapko majboot bnna pdega Apne liye ..Apne khatir ..so thank uh ki Mai bht majboot Insan bn kr Nikla...ab shyd aapki wajah se zindagi me kisi ke liye b attachment khtm ho gayi or shyd ab Mai or success pa paunga...ha es bich mere bht bhram b dur hue mjhe lgta tha ki Mai logo Ko smjha pata hu..Lekin JB itni sari koshish krne ke Baad b Mai kisi Apne khaas Ko ni smjha paya toh obviously bht dukh hua ...LGA ki kami reh gayi h Abhi ..koi Ni fir se khud pe kaam Kiya jaega...or Haan aapse bht kch sikha es bich khass kr pichle 10 din me ki koi itna majboot bn skta hai....ki kisi ke na hone se kaise na frk pdey...
Baki sare readers Ko sirf ek suggestions hai ki zindagi me koi attachment Mt rkho wrna ek time aaega jbb whi attachment aapko Tod ke rkh dega....ha last chij jo sbhi readers Ko khna chahunga ki "kisi Ko apna mat Bnao...kbhi b Mt Bnao...qki TB bht dukh hota h JB AAP kisi Ko apna SAB kch bna lete or fir JB samay khrab hota h toh usi Insan Ko SB kch se kch nhi bdal dete ho...toh us Insan ki mansik sthithi pe bht frk pdta hai..esliye maine toh ab logo Ko apna bnana chor AAP SB b chor de qki JB wo SB kch se kch nhi bna dega toh marne Jaisi halat ho jaegi"...Mai toh Nikal gya en SB se shyd AAP na Nikal pao....(free ki advice thi Lena chaho le Lena)
Note:- ye kisi vyakti Vishesh ke liye Ni likha gya hai..agr Aisa paya jata h toh wo ek Matr sanyog hoga..

Hey hi ...kch purani baat yaad aai aaj socha likh du....ha ab qki meri har baat Ko galat hi Liya Jata h so umeed h es baat Ko b Liya jaega....Khair esliye kisi ka Dil dukhey toh maafi....baki mjhe PTA h aaj b esko pdhne ke Baad uh will treat like ki SB sun chuki hu nd I also know koi frk Ni pdega..bt now fact is Maine frk pdwane ke liye likha hi Ni h ye .

Thode din pehle ki baat h..she said me ki chije bdal gyi h kshitiz...JB mjhe tumhari zruarat thi...TB tum nhi thay wha pe..she said tumhare saath log honge bt Mai Akeli thi bilkul koi Ni tha jo mjhse puchta... actually ye unki prblm Ni h ye mere society ki prblm h society Ko na Jane Aisa q lagta hai ki ek breakup ke Baad ladke Ko frk Ni pdta frk pdta h toh sirf ladki ko..Aisa bht cases me hota bhi h..bt sry to say mere me Ni tha...arey bhyi ho skta h mere Sath bht log ho us time pe Lekin fir b mjhe unki jrurat Ni thi .mjhe b tumhari jruat thi ..q Ni aai tum... pyar Kiya tha na mere se bht bht Jada..toh tum q Ni aai ...kaise reh li mere Bina...JB tum ro rhi thi toh q Ni aai ek b din ..Khair ye b choro rishta tumhara b tha..na...toh affords ki umeed mere akele se q thi ...Mai btata hu q thi ...qki fact ye tha ki tumhe kbhi meri jruat thi Ni...meri kami feel krne wala Milne LGA tha...wrna tum toh reh hi Ni pati mere Bina..aaj hi dekho na tum itni aage bdh gyi ki dur se dekhne pe ye LG rha h ye mere akele ka rishta tha..or rhi baat tumhe bhulne ki toh har din tumhe ek letter likh rkha h SB Usme mention tha ..bt uski b koi value Ni rhi

Khair suno bht Assan hota h rote rote Kiya hua kisi se kiya gya koi promise Tod Dena..or bht muskil hota h usko nibhana..

Bht Assan hota h khud Ko Shi prove krna bht muskil hota h kisi or Ko Shi smjhna...

Bht Assan hota h apni zindagi Ko bhul Jana or kisi Ko zindagi bna Lena Lekin bht muskil hota h.. zindagi me ek hi zindagi bnana...

Bht Assan hota h kisi se jhut bol kr chije kr lena...jhut bol Lena Lekin bht muskil hota hai ....jisse kbhi SB sch bola usse sch bol Lena ...

Bht Assan hota h pyar nibhana JB SB kch Shi chal rha ho bht muskil hota h TB pyar nibhana JB chije Shi Ni chal rhi Hoti ..

Bs koi Ni aaj mera beta bda ho Chuka hai ..usey Mai Ni smjh aata hu ...jo chup chap baidh ke ghanto mjhe sunti rhti thi jo khti thi tum Bolte rho bht acha lagta h aaj khti h mjhe msg krna kB bnd Kroge..wo khti h irritate Hoti hu tunhari baato se ..jo mjhse Milne Ko Marti rhti thi khti thi kshitiz thodi der ke liye mil lo wo aaj mjhse jhut bol ke kisi or se Milne chli jati h..aaj mjhse nafrat kr baidhi h jo phle sirf mjhse pyar Krti thi .aaj wo aisi ho gyi h toh Maan Liya ki hmari bht galtiya rhi hongi Lekin kch toh tumhari b rhi hongi bs jra Sochiyega...

Baki ye likhne ka maksad apni Ridha Ko galat prove krna Ni tha...meri Ridha na smjh ho skti h Lekin galat nhi....baki AAP ka Jo Dil krey kriye...

Aaj es desh ne bht sb kho diya usne...apna atal ratn kho diya...ye akele aise neta thay jo hume majbor kr gye rone ke liye...ye wo hai jinhe dekh mai rajneeti krna chahta hu...
Inki kavitaye hmesha inspire krti rhi hai...inke vipaksh tha lekin koi virodhi nhi tha...aaj b kisi debate me jane se phle hum log inko sun ke jate hai..ki ense nye shabd sunne ko mil jate thay jb inko pdhte thay..
Jb mai apni personal life me bb thoda preshan hta hu toh enhe sun leta hu...aap mere hriday me hmesha atal rhoge..aaj b aap mere dukh ke sathi rhoge...aap ko dekh rajneeti me aana chahta hu bs aapko dekh ke aapki khi hui bato ko apnana chahta hu...
Jo b es blog ko pdhey unse request hai 10 min ka smay nikal atal g ke vaktitav ke bare me jrur pdey...
"Mai haar nhi manunga
Mai raar nhi thanunga..
Kaal ke kapal se likhta hu mitata hu....
Bs mai haar nhi manunga rar nhi thanunga"

Happy friendship day

Hey a very friendship day to my bestest friend...sehrish...ya u r my bestest friend..actually uh teach me how a friendship Shud be...ha beshak hum dost se thode Jada...bt kisi b rishte ki Neev Dosti hi Hoti hai..ye Neev jitni majboot Hoti hai utna hi koi b rishta.... actually I don't need a day to thank uh for our friendship or whatever it was...bt it was damn beautiful Safar..with uh....
Ye Mai tumhe impress krne ke liye no likh rha hu bcz I think that I don't need to impress uh...bs ek do videos dekh ke I remembered the things...
PTA h I can mention how we used to fight on last momos...how we used to do things for each other...ur bday was my best day...my bday was urs....Mai kya kapde phnunga uski Jada chinta tjhe rhti thi bt uh know what ye SB chije or ki Dosti me b mil skti hai...bt kuch chije h jo hmari Dosti Ko bht khaas bnati hai...
Mujhe koi prblm Hoti h toh Mai tumhare samne aa kr ro skta hu..tum apni family tk ki prblm mjhse share krti ho ..meri tbyit khrab Hoti thi toh hmari es baat pe ladai ho jati thi ki Maine doctor Ko q...ni dikhaya...tum koi dress phenti thi toh uh used to think mjhe psnd aaegi ya ni...
Mere Jeb me JB 10 rupee b Ni hua krte thay tum TB bhi utni hi khush reh leti thi mere Sath...we used to fight a lot..galti meri Hoti thi Lekin chije tum thik kr deti thi...
Nd most important uh took my dream as ur..mjhe sch me Ni LGA kbhi ki Bangalore Jana bs ab mera dream reh gya....so..baki more I don't want to say....just...thankful to God who let me meet to the world' bestest person...

Ha chije ab waise  nhi reh gayi h...hum ek dusre Ko dekhna psnd Ni krte...bht argue krte hai...bt still this relation was best for me....
So a very happy friendship day to my bestest friend....nd sorry in front of everybody for the every single mistake I made...

A last note to delhi

Pta ni q delhi se bht gaadha rishta h hmara..jb aaj subah subah mail dekha ki mse ki traf se mail aaya h confrence ke liye bula rhay hai..tb lga ki ek nye safar ki shuruat ho rhi hai..man khush tha lekin ganga ki kasam thode dukhi b thay...shyd darta hu mai delhi ko chorne ..bht kch diya h es seher ne mjhe bht kch...shyd jeevan ki har khushi de di h esne mjhe....jb mai jhangir puri se metro me baidhta hu toh huda city center tk ek metro station aisa nhi h jha se koi yaad na judi ho..chahe wo adarsh ngar pr niche jate hue upar metro station pe khade kisi insan ko dekhte hue jana ho..ya fir azadpur ho ...model town ki jheel me maggie khana ho...gtb nagar ke momos ho...vishvidyalay pe ghanto baidhna ho..ya wo meeting point ho....ya vidhan sabha...wo kch ganda lgna ho...ya civil lines pe apni life ka best new year gift milna ho....or "kashmere gate" yha pe toh dil tham jata hai...kon khta h kashmere gate pe bht bhid hoti hai..mai toh bhid me b pehchan lunga...ha yha bht meethi yaade hai....last me aa ke bht bekar yaadey b bn gyi chahe wo mera rona ya kch bhi...fir chandni chowk or chawri bazar pe ruth ke baidh jana ho..."new delhi" esko kaise bhul skta hu..ye metro station toh jaan hua krti thi...sala safar hi yhi se shuru hua tha..
Ye 6 wali hai, ye vishvidyalaya ki hai, esme bht bheed hai, agli me pkka chlenge...ye keh keh ke kitni hi metro chori h sirf samay katne ke liye....
Fir rajiv chowk ka palika ho...ya janpath...ha bhyi whi janpath jha se tum log har achi dress ko reject kr dete thay or mai piche piche ghumta ghumta irritate hota tha..ya whi palika jha hmare farewell pe kisi mere khas ne bht zidd krke mjhe kurta dilane ki zidd kri thi....
Ya fir wo aage jaage udyog bhawan ho...haha...yha bht achi memory hai...ye akela metro station hoga jha maine kisi ke sath hide n seek khela...ya m serious metro station pe hide n seek....or yha ghanto ghanto baidha b hua hu...
Sb khas tha chahe wo arjangadh ho..ghitorni....(clg wale kaka ne dekha tha yha) ho..chahe huda city center pe jake chutiya katna ho..
Ae...delhi tu toh janti h tjhse kitna pyar krta hu mai...mai b bht emotional hu chorte time...aa apni aankhey bnd kr delhi...tjhe aaj last baar gale se lga lu...meri rooh me basti thi....mjhe toh teri gandi hwa ki bhi aadat ho gyi. .or mere piche mere apne logo ka khyal rkhio...qki jb dobara aaunga toh tjhse hisaab lunga sbhi chijo ka...

Aaj ek baat bolu tjhe..schi tjhe man ni h chor ke jane ka...maa baap b ni chahte jau..lekin tjhe toh sb pta hai na...ki q jana h mujhe..mai delhi ko kbhi ni bhulunga...delhi ne bht pyar diya h mjhe...

Or baki baat rhi maa baap dosto ki toh mjhe pta h kch din mjhe jrur yaad kroge tum log...mai b krunga bht krunga qki maine toh chaha hi ni tha kbhi ye sb ho...koshish b kri bht ki ye sab na ho...lekin ab ho gya toh koi ni...toh aap sb khush rhna hmesha....bs...or delhi tjhse or delhi walo aap se b kbhi koi galti hui ho meri traf se toh uske liye maaf krna..bs delhi jb agli baar aaunga toh tjhse pucbunga ki meri galti kya thi jo mjhe khud se alag krna pda tjhe..or baki tu ne jo mjhe memories di h uske sahare toh mai ek or life jee lunva..,😑😚😚

My whole readers know ki maine ek insan ke alawa kbhi kisi ke liye kch ni likha bt today i m writing about one of my friend..."hira" ...sb khte h bchi si hai...mai b khta hu kb bdi hogi....pta hai yr mai bht simple sa aadmi hu...simple si baat bolta hu...jo hu real...hu...beshak log mjhe neta bolte ho..lekin mai thoda alag kism ka neta hu...mai wo neta hu jo emotions jahir krne me vishwas rkhta hu...mere paas kch b ni h siway meri simplicity ke....sari chije dil se krne ke alawa...bhto ne en chijo time to time psnd b kiya hai...so mai jo b likh rha hu usi simplicity ke sath likh rha hu..
Par bs dil pe hath rkh ke ek chij khunga...es bich agr yr tu nhi hoti toh mera kya hi hota mai..toh bilkul akela tha...lekin tu ne mjhe har wqt sambhala...mai jb koi status lgta tha tu uspe acha cmnt krti thi taki mjhe alone sa na feel ho...life ke bht bure time se nikla hu mai...bt tu ne mera har wqt sath diya...tu es bich mere sath khadi rhi har wqt...
Aaj b mjhe sch me lgta hai ki tjhe dukh h mere jane ka lekin tu toh sb janti h ki mere liye bhi kitna muskil h meri delhi ko chor ke jana...wo b aise chor ke jana...mera toh sb kch yhi chut jayaega...yr aisa thodi h ki mai wha ja ke bht enjoy krunga...mjhe b yaad aaegi tum sb ki sari chijo ki...balki mai wha akela rhunga....rounga toh koi chup b ni kraya..so mere liye bht muskil tu ne itni baar roka mjhe sch me bht bht bht acha lga. Tu ne mera sath diya meri life ke sbse muskil daur me uske liye thank uh....koi ni tha jb tu thi mere liye....i still remember mjhe rona aata tha mai tjhe fone krta tha or tu khti ro mat sb thik ho jaega....bs bhagwan aise dost sb ko de...even mai toh bht lucky rha hu bht chijo...ha kyi chije mjhe bht buri lgi...kyi chije meri life me b shi ni hui...bt still i will say mjhe bht chije achi mili..bhagwan aisi kismat sb ko de...
Ye last blog h jo mai apne clg life se related kch likh rha hu...life me mjhse ek bht ache insan ne kha aage bdhne ko so mjhe aage bdhna h esliye ab emotions ko htana pdega...wrna baki tu toh janti hi h mai bht jldi ro deta hu....so ye esliye tha agr aage kbhi tere liye mai kch jaahir na kru toh tu ye hmesha smjhio ki mere dil me hmesha tere liye rhega...agr kbhi koi tjhe jruat hogi toh tere liye flight pkd ke delhi b aa jaunga mai...qki kshitiz ranjan jb kamjor tha life me tu uske sath thi....so thank you...for being alws for me....

Today is one of the fine day of my life..and m going share the reason...
Cat is my dream..iim is my dream...its nt only the better carrear option for me instead it was a dream...of two people...aaj mai apne institute gya tha...wha pe aaj mjhe mauka mila nye cat aspirants ko suggestions, apna experience share krne ka...actually ye mere liye bht bdi baat hai..jis institute me mai roz baidh ke apne spne jeeta tha...alag alag ko sunta tha wha aaj bolne ka mauka mila...as i got good score in my cat last year thats y..they called me..apne spne ko pura krna or baki log jo whi spna dekh rhay h unki b madad krna ye apne aap me bdi baat..usme jo mjhe sun rhay thay kyi student aise b thay jo last year mere batch mate thay aaj..mjhe sun rhay thay so it was bit kind of acheivement for me..or mjhe bolna hmesha se psnd rha hai..
I dont know now i m goona fulfill my dream or not ..bcz cause of some personal reason i just changed my path...i have to change my field...shyd banglore nhi chennai hi tha meri kismat me...
Khair aaj bcho ko banglore bhejne ka rasta dikha kr khud ka 1% sapna pura kr hi liya

Hey I shared my last blog to uh 3 only..and hira or Rani tum dono ke Rply ne mujhe force Kiya ye dobara likhne Ko.
Rani tum emotional ho gayi ye mere liye bht bdi baat h... actually Mai toh already bht emotional hu...tere rply ne or emotional kr diya..PTA h tum kch log ho jinke Sath Mai hamesha baidh ke Rona psnd krunga..logo ki CLG life achi hoti bt meri toh full of dreams thi just caz of people like uh..jinhone hamesha har chij pe appreciate Kiya...
Aaj emotional Shyd esliye qki wakai Mera Dil Janta h ab sari chije bdal chuki hai..PTA nhi hum logo ki Dosti or kitne time chlegi..Mai or kitne time tum logo ke Sath reh paunga..bt jo b tha bht spcl tha...Rani tera wo apni studies se related chije mjhse puchna...CLG bht km aana Lekin jb b aana ghumne chlna..wo India gate pe hum log jb Gye thay yaad h maine kha tha koi photo le lega hmari or next day newspaper me photo aayi thi remember...
Haste haste ab bs thoda tham SA jata hu..
Thoda Ruk SA jata hu...
Fir sochta hu ki jb insan khush rhta h or wo jo vaade krta h ki hum log Sath rhenge ye Dosti hamesha aisi hi rhegi..
Kya Aisa sch me ho pata hai...
Khair jo b ho future I don't know I alwz feel proud while having people like uh..jinhone hamesha meri achai hi dekhi...khne Ko mera religion tumse alag h Lekin mjhe kbhi feel Ni hone diya tumne chahe..wo mere Sath khana khana ho..ya kisi muslim ladki ka es Hindu ke Mathe pe Tika krna ho..SB kch bht spcl tha...
Ha Mai Apne or sehrish dono ke traf se want to thank uh and hira both ki tum dono ne Hume or hmare rishte Ko bht ache se smjha Shyd tumhare Bina hum dono kbhi itne khush Ni rhte...har kadam hum dono ka Sath diya..
Beshak aaj chije Badal gyi ho..wo Badal gyi Shyd ab Mai b Badal gya Lekin es chakkar me Mai tum dono ki value Kam Ni kr skta..
Last blog me Rani maine tjhe apni taraf se thx Kiya tha es blog me Mai tjhe hum dono ki traf se thx khta hu...hum dono ke rishte Ko itne ache se smjhne ke liye..tum dono na hote toh PTAni ye Safar kaisa hota hmara...so bht bda wala thank uh...mjhe meri life ki best memories Dene ke liye..thank uh

Hey a very happy birthday to uh...Mai auto ki tarah status pe photos upload krna nhi Janta hu...ha likhna Janta hu so here m writing for uh...
Bht khaas rha h hmara rishta bht utar chadav se bhara agr tu mjhse sbse Jada gussa Hui h toh CLG ke piche mjhe biryani b sbse Jada tu ne hi khilayi hai..SB Ko lgta h tu moodial actually mjhe b lgta h Lekin wo PTA h matter Ni krta jb tera Dil dekhta hu toh..tu Dil ki saaf h sbse achi chij h...or esko bnaye rkhio...gussa km kr de thoda gusse se bht bht nuksan hota h qki...
Mai ek incident share krna chahunga..
Jb hum aagra trip se aa rhay thay teri tbyit khrab ho gayi thi..SB tere aas paas thay...tu unconscious thi...sehrish tere Kareeb badihi thi bt tu continuosly mera naam le rhi thi bs ki kshitiz mjhe kch ho rha h kind of..ye chij mjhe Baad me sehrish ne hi note krwaya tha .ye chij hi dikhata h ki Mai kitni ahmiyat rkhta hu tere liye...tjhe kitna trust h mjhpe...
Tum SB CLG time me mjhse har chij me advice lete thay jo mjhe bht acha lagta tha wo Apne AAP me spcl feel krwa deta that..
Ha ab chije waisi Ni rhi h logo ke man se meri ahmiyat km ho gayi h...CLG khtm ho gya h Lekin tum SB mere Dil me hamesha rhoge...tum SB ho jisne meri CLG life Ko or acha bnaya hai...
Tjhse or hira se meri achi wali Dosti beshak sehrish ki wajah se hui ho bt tum dono ne kbhi mjhe ye feel Ni hone diya ki tum dono phle sehrish ki dosto...
Es janmdin pe I just wanna thank uh for being with me....

My best bday..

Aaj Mai apni ek memory share krna chahta hu...apna 20th bday of year 2016...oh my god....this is the day..jiske liye Mai dobara mar b skta hu...aaj meri Ridha Ko jaano AAP log....

PTA h aaj se pehle tk maine kbhi bday Ni manaya..esliye toh pyar karta hu aapse itna..aapne kya kya nhi Kiya mjhe khush krne Ko..PTA h apni entire life ka first bday cake maine aapke Sath cut Kiya...aapki wajah se cut Kiya...ye baat mere liye bht Jada emotional hai..or bht important bhi..itni ki ye baat toh apni wife Ko b btaunga..uh made my day that day...Shyd us din Ni kha tha aaj khta hu...thank uh for the day..thank uh so much...mere liye shirt leke aaye thay or colour kitna important h wo mere liye ye toh btane ki jruat Ni h Shyd...m sorry tumhe toh PTA Hoga na kis liye qki Mai aapki us shirt Ko justify...Ni kr paya..presidential speech Ni de paya usey phen ke...I know mjhse khi Jada aapka man tha Mai election ldu nhi lad paya m sry for that...wo shirt hamesha mere paas rhegi..hamesha..

Or us key ring Ko toh koi Ni bhul skta..ek whi toh saboot h mere paas ki AAP mere se kitna pyar krte thay..kash mere wo din kbhi khtm na hote..meri Ridha meri ek smile ke liye kch b kr jati h...or I know future me koi b itna mere liye Ni kr paega...thank uh so much for everything uh had given me....na AAP jaisa koi tha or na ho skta hai...

21st bday 2017...

Ye Jada khas tha esliye qki es bday pe mere paas paise nhi thay or meri Ridha Apne account se paise Nikal ke layi thi taki wo mujhe meri favourite place pe le ja skey...kitni gf Apne bf pe khrch wo b bf ke bday pe...meri Ridha toh itni khaas thi...usne sbse se mujhe video msgs send krwaye thay...bht mehnat ki thi....sbse rulane wala wo aapka mere liye paise lekr aana tha...mere liye mere bday spcly shirt khridwana that bs..esliye Rota hu Mai..koi Ni kr skta mjhse itna pyar I know....thank uh thank uh thank uh...for everything...thank uh...mjhe hamesha khush krne ke liye....ye meri puri zindagi ka sbse acha rishta tha or aage kbhi Aisa rishta nhi milega mjhe I know...I literally feel proud ki Ridha jaisa insan mere se itna pyar karta tha ye mere liye bht bdi baat hai...

Usne ek din mjhse kha tumhare andar ka charm khtm ho gya hai...ho gya ho ga madam...Lekin itna Janta hu madam jo adna SA bcha 1st year me ja ke 3rd ki class me speech de skta hai...or taali Bator skta h uska charm Shyd hi khtm ho kbhi ..

Hum insan ki galti hoti h hmari soch materialistic hai...Lekin har chij naapi toli nhi ja skti..

Madam pyar ek ahsas hota hai...Khair ye baat toh aapse behter koi Ni smjh skta..pyar me naapa tola nhi jta . Kami khubi Ni dekhi jati agr aisa hota toh fir pyar ke liye b job ki tarah interview hua krte..jo acha krta usey rkh Liya jata h...ye toh bs ho jata h..or bs ek Baar ho gya fir toh ho hi gya bs...

Ye PTA Ni kon log h jo breakup,move on jaise concept lekr aaye thay...mere hisab se wo toh materialistic relationship me hota hoga..Dil ke rishto me Aisa kha hota h..Dil toh bechara itna kamjor hota h ki wo toh tez Aawaz se hi ghabra jata h fir itne bdey bdey Shabd wo kha se jhel paega...

AAP kisi Ko bhul jate ho...man se chije khtm kr lete ho ye aapki neeji psnd hai..Lekin hakeekat me Aisa hota nhi h eska sirf aapko bharam hota h...or hota h toh Aisa hona nhi chahiye...or Maan lijiye Aisa ho jata h true feelings khtm ho jati h toh ye line pdhne ke Baad mjhpe Mt hasiyega khud pe hasiyega..ki Shi h ye hasi kya??

Kbhi kisi Ko SB dekr usey praya krna Shi Ni hota hai...ha ye SB aapke liye Ni h..qki AAP toh khoge ye SB sun chuki hu ..

Ye bhar keh Dena ki ye life ka phase hai tum b thik ho jaoge ye Shi Ni h..khud socho jisko kbhi pyar wo pyar mang rha h toh wo galat tum pyar ke bdle me dya de rhay ho tum thik kaise??

Meri dikkat ye hai Mai toh ye SB keh b Ni pa rha hu qki unko Bura LG jata hai..unko lgta h unko galat q keh rha hu Mai....Naah...AAP galat Ni ho kash galat hote ye SB kbhi likhne ki jruat hi na pdti...

Jb kisi Ko bcha hota h or wo 2 saal ka ho jata h TB tk wo maa BAAP Ko kitni yaadey de ja Chuka hota hai..Esne phli Baar papa in kha..baidna KB sikha..chlna kB sikha..bolna kB sikha...bht kch....jo yaad maa BAAP marte time tk yaad rkhte h...fir bdey ho kr diye Gye life ki 2 saal ki memories Ko AAP ye keh kr kaise khtm krna chah rhay ho .."bhar Niklo en chijo se...life ka phase h SB thik ho jaega...ab hum baat Ni karenge qki fir whi chije hongi....really uh think u r right...".... bht bdi bdi batey go get a life...Bura mat manna AAP toh bht chote thay JB ungli thaami thi ab bht bdey se LG rhay ho...PTA h mjhe aapko meri bht chinta hai..ghabraiye mat aaj ye promise marunga nhi kbhi...arey kya tha Mai kitna Badal gya hu...bs esliye ki tumhe nhi khona chahta that .tumne toh kch na dekha...bs ho Gye alag toh ho Gye....mjhe PTA h AAP kbhi Sath Ni aaoge Lekin es faisle khi kch toh galti hai..Khair aapko meri batey galat lgi hogi so m sorry for that...

I m nt perfect

Hey aaj Sunday...today I m missing my earlier Sundays...chije bdlne me wqt Ni lgta Lekin bdlna chahiye....
Ye wqt kisi ka Ni hai...aaj es wqt ne hi ek majboot motivated insan Ko kamjor depress bna diya h Khair Esme aapki koi galti Ni h..bs wqt mera Ni rha..
Jis insan ki pehli priority Mai Tha aaj Mai uski priority Ni rha bs wqt mera Ni rha..
Wo khti h tum bht insecure ho...
Mai naak unchi krke khta hu Haan Mai apni duniya ki sbse achi chij Ko lekr insecure hu...
Wo khti h tumne mjhpe gussa Kiya Mai khta hu us gusse ka Karan b pyar tha ..
Wo khti h hmara koi future nhi h...
Mai khta hu mera past present or future b tum hi ho...

Maine man khatta kr diya aapka...PTA h mjhe...AAP toh beintha pyar karte thay mjhse....bs ab sb thik h bs mera wqt galat ho gya h..

Ab chije bdlne ki baat karta hu toh usko life film si LG jati h...
Film hi Shi lead role toh aapka hi hai...
Likhne se b Darne LGA hu ki kya PTA kon si chij buri LG jaye...
Care nhi krne humne aapki Aisa aarop hai hum pe..yakeen kriye Apne bche ki tarah pala tha...
Kya khata ho gyi humse aisi ki Jo maaf Ni ki ja skti....
 " Ek mera wo wqt..jb SB mera tha...
Jb gaane mere liye sune jate...fone mere liye chlaya Jata...unke aansu b mere thay...jb Mai ghadi samay dekh ke bta deta meri mohatarma kya kr rhi hogi...
Chije bdal gyi h ab...
Wqt mera Ni rha...biwi ne talak le liya..bcha chor ke chla gya..ab kch PTA Ni chal pata unka...Dil baichain Rhta Lekin jubaan puchne ki himmat Ni kr pata..kya PTA unhe fir kch Bura LG jaye...

Unse Mai khta pyar krti ho mjhse...wo bholi si shakal aankh me thoda SA Pani lake gale LG ke keh deta tha khud se Jada...fir Mai puchta tha hamesha krogi wo keh dete thay haa....or bs wo Haan meri life ki sari prblms dur Mita deti thi...bs wo Haan Ni rha h..

Wo preshan Hoti thi or mere kandhe pe sar rkh deti thi or khti thi yha bht Sukoon milta...(yakeen krna Sukoon Shabd likhte time fut or do pda Mai)..ha wo khti thi Sukoon milta usko kya PTA jb wo mere kandhe pe sar rkh deti thi..toh usse Jada Sukoon mjhe mil Jata tha..chlte chlte wo apni choti ungli meri ungli me FSA deti thi..TB usko kya PTA meri ungli Ko TB ek Ghar SA mil Jata tha..
Wo aati thi khti thi kshitiz Baal khule rkhu ya baandh lu...arey tum toh mjhe jaise mrji achi lagti ho..Lekin tum jb puchti thi toh Aisa lagta tha ki Mai hi khubsoorat BN rha hu...
Milne se pehle tum mjhse puchti thi ki kl kya phengo...bs ye sawal mjhe handsome bna deta tha...
Sare Lamhe tjhe khaas bna dete h..jb Mai 7 din liye gaaon ja rha tha tu kitna royi thi...aaj 7 mahine se alag kr diya h khud se socho Mai kitna Roya hounga...
Bina maange apni pics send krti thi aaj mangne pe b Ni milti socho Mai kitna dukhi hota hounga...
Chije khtam hui..SB bdli.. mjhse galti b hui Lekin Mai galat nhi tha..ab AAP sochoge ye SB baatey ho chuki h Mai sun chuki hu SB..ha I know bs esliye keh rha hu ye SB qki m missing uh a lot today...

Mjhe song send krke khud khush Hoti thi .Mai b koi emotional movie dekh ke sirf tumko hi yaad krta tha. .kitna acha tha na SB...kitna khush thay hum..dono hi. .Shyd tum Jada khush thi..kaise subah ke 8 se 6 BJ jate thay PTA hi Ni chlta tha..tum kch b krti thi sochti thi kshitiz Ko btaungj.. kshitiz ke saath Murthal jaungi...ice skating krne jaungi..hill station jaungi... candle lite dinner....Mai car drive Kru..kitna sare sapne thay na tumhare...tum kitni khush thi..maine SB khrab kr diya..tumhara Dil Tod diya...tumhare sapne Tod diye...toh akela chor diya maine...Mai bht Bura hu..bht Jada...Shi se pyar b Ni Chuka paya tumhara..tumhari paneer ki theory khrab kr di..tumhe pyar se nafrat kra diya.tumhari perfect ki defination Badal di maine....tumhe relationship se ghin aane lagi..Mera pyaar haar gya Babu...mera pyar haar gya...us soft si ladki Ko maine kathor bnne pe majboor kr diya..sari khusiya uski tbah kr di maine...mjhe koi haq Ni tha tumpe gussa krne ka...hamesha kha h aa jao...aaj keh rha hu " Mt aana Babu fir se kbhi mere paas..Mai bht Bura hu...Mai acha nahi hu..maine bht hurt Kiya h tumhe..kbhi Mt aana mere paas kbhi Ni.."

AApne kha tha na chije dono ke man se khtm hone lagi thi toh Shyd hum dono hi ye na smjh paye Jha hum Roz 8-8 ghante milte thay wha 8-8 din me milenge toh chije khrab honi hi thi..

Bs Haan AAP ye keh dete ho kl alag hona tha aaj ho Gye...nhi ye Shi Ni h...Mai ladta Apne pyar ke liye...bs ek chij Ni bhuli jati yhi ki "yaad h mujhko tu ne kha tha tumse nhi ruthenge kbhi"

Meri strength.. inspiration....motivation SB ja rhi h tumhare saath...

Bs sare readers Ko ek advice h Jo b kbhi b en blogs Ko pdhay meri Ridha Ko galat mt smjhana...agr koi galat tha toh wo Mai Tha....or Ridha aapko kch Bura LGA ho ye pdhne ke Baad toh sbke samne maafi mangta hu

Confession

I was the very selfish person...bt I am nt now..hey Ridha...tum hamesha sochti rhi ki Maine tumhe pyar krna sikhaya galat Balki tumne mujhe sikhaya pyar me koi limits Ni hoti....I learnt a lot from uh...
Jb Mai preshan hota tha kisi chij se tum aayi thi or khti thi...I know tum ye kr skte ho...toh mjhe inspiration milti thi...
Jb koi mere piche khta tha kshitiz toh Aisa h waisa h or jb Mai preshan hota tha tum aayi thi or khti thi mera kshitiz toh sbse acha h...wo motivate krta tha mjhe ..
Most important jb Mai apni life me bht tough phase se ja rha tha cat ke time... everyday I remember uh was dere to support me...bs pure din me Mai tumse 5-7 min baat krta tha bt still everyday came with a smile...
Us frustration me Maine gussa b Kiya tumpe...Lekin tumhare pyar ne uspe Mita diya...we be apart ...alag ho Gye hum...

Bt today I confess uh here ki I always loved uh always means always...Mai jo kr skta tha maine Kiya tha Ridha...bs kch nhi Sambhal pata tha Apne gussa Ko bt mera Bhagwan Janta h TB b bht pyar Kiya tha tumko..maa ki Kasam bht pyar Kiya tha tumko..meri SB kch h tum thi best friend...girl friend...family SB....bht Khushi hoti thi jb tution fees milti thi ye soch ke ki ab Mai Ridha ache se reh paenge...har jagah Apne sath dekha tha...har jagah...kch b krta tha toh Ridha tumhare liye b sochta tha...
Tum hi toh thi jiske liye mjhe Rona bht psnd tha bht Jada....Ridha sari chije mere against ho gyi thi...hmara religion...tumhari family..mera gussa....SB mere against ho gya tha esliye Mai galat saabit ho gya tumhari nazro me...wrna Mai sch me galat Ni tha..Ridha hum km Milne lgey thay esliye hmare bich prblm aane lagi thi...maine toh kbhi nhi khona chaha tha tumhe kbhi nhi...Lekin tumhe kho diya maine..mera bcha kho gya...mera Sapna tut gya..
Aapne kha ki jb AAP rote thay Mai bsy tha nhi kbhi nhi tha bsy....us time me b sbke samne rota tha aapke liye...Khair Mai Jada kch nhi likh paunga....bs I loved uh at every moment of my life bs..

Feelings

Today i was lying on the hospital bed...bht chije dimag me aa rhi thi dar b rha tha bht..
Baki ye wo time hota h jb aap bht chije sochte ho bht chije aapke dimag me chlti h..
Aaj important din the mere liye bht...aaj bht chije sochne ko mili...us soch ka ek roop...

Pyar aapko majboot bnata hai...jb pyar aapko kamjor bnane lgey toh smjho kch galat hai...pyar me aap galtiya b kr skte ho lekin kmjor bnna shi ni h..ye pyar kya smjhta h khud ki usne apne pyar ko bht khushi di toh aaj usey usko rulane ka haq mil gya...usey akela chor dene ka haq mil gya..nhi..bilkul nhi..
Sare readers ko ek baat khni h ye pyar h khel nhi jo aap ek din aate ho or keh dete ho feelings ni rhi..arey gussa samne wale insan ko gussa dila skta h feeling kaise khtm kr skta hai bhyi..
For example maan lijiye mai apne papa se bht pyar krta hu wo mjhpe kisi baat pe bht gussa krte h aisi baat pe jisme meri koi galti ni rhti toh mjhe unpe obviously gussa aaega..lekin jra aap sb sochiyega kya mai unse pyar krna bnd kr dunga nhi na..es umeed me jrur rhunga ki papa aaye mjhse maafi maangey..mjhe mnaye ha ye unka farz h lekin kya aapko ni lgta unhe maaf krke gla lga lena b mera farz h...kaise khtm ho jaegi feelings....or aise khtm honi hoti toh koi beta apne baap se pyar ni kr pata qki har baap ne kbhi na kbhi apne bete pe gussa kiya hota hai..
Toh fir ye logic hum us pyare rishte pe q lga dete h jo humne khud bnaya hota h??
Q jb sb kch shi hota h toh wo insan perfect rhta h or jb wo khud pe thoda control na kr paye toh wo insan galat ho jata?
Hmara maapne ka tarika itna chota kaise ho skta h??
Jis pyar me ek samay hum kch b krne ko tyaar hote h bdey bdey vaade krte h ki hmesha tumhara sath dunga ya dungi toh q kisi ek insan ki galti pr hum usey ye keh dete h khtm kro yr ab sch me wo wali feelings nhi h...
Jb tk sb shi tha tb tk aap shi thay toh kha gya wo unlimited pyar jo har relationship ki shruat me hota hai....q insan ko dheere dheere whi chije napasand hone lgti hai...
Jb aap maa baap se jhut bol kr kisi se milne jate ho wo b bht khushi khushi toh aap kaise ek breakup jaise chote shabd se khud ko rok lete ho...kya ye breakup shbd aapke maa baap se bdh kr hai..?
Bilkul nhi bs frk ye h ab aap judge krne lgey ho..or aise hi log es kahavat ko bdhawa dete h ki pyar andha hota hai...
Bt let me remind uh....it to the entire youth jo khta h ki mai usse bht pyar krta hu...pyar bilkul andha nhi hota h..pyar bht smjhdar hota hai...pyar wo hota h jb koi apni mahine ki tution fees apni gf ke hath me la kr rkh deta h or khta h ab tumhe mahine ka khrcha chlana h...kya aap kbhi kaise keh skte ho aisa pyar andha ho skta h...pyar wo hota h jb aapki jeb me ek rupya na ho toh ladki khey mjhe bhuk ni h...jo aap usey na dila pao wo khey mjhe ye psnd ni h...aisa pyar kaise andha ho skta hai..
Lekin aaj kl ke hum log esko apne according lene lgey...aap sb ko ek baat khna chahta hu pyar me agr kisi pe gussa krna galat h toh us gusse ke chakkar me feelings khtm kr lena man se bhi utna hi galat h...
Acha btao relationship me aane se phle kya aap me se kisi ne bhi kbhi koi bond sign kiya tha kya ki agr tum gussa kroge toh mere man se pyar khtm ho jaega..tb toh bda emotiinal ho ke aap sb ne keh diya hoga nhi babu tum jaise b rhoge tumse mai itna hi pyar krungi..now think did uh really justify ur statement...hum insan aise kaise ho jate h jo apni baat shi ni kr pate...hum sb ko kl ko upar jana..jo b aise feelings khtm kr deta h wo bs apni aankh bnd krle...or soche agr kl upar wala puche ki usne gussa kiya tumpe wo galat h bilkul lekin tumne feelings khtm kr li kya wo shi h??
Kya aap justify kr do ge apne jwab ko..
Agr haa toh jab mai 7 saal ka tha mere papa ne mjhe thappad mara tha us din nafrat kr leni chahiye thi mjhe...lekin mai toh aaj b bht pyar krta hu unse..ab jada intellectual log aaenge or khenge maa baap ka pyar alga hota h let me tell uh frnd last blog me b smjhaya tha ki pyar pyar hota h bs frk pta h kya hai ki jis din se hum rishte me aate h jo sbke liye bht pyara dono log ek dusre se beintha pyar krte hai us rishte me hum hmesha ek option lekr chlte h ki agr kch b galat hua toh kya ho gya breakup toh hai hi breakup kr lenge..feeling khtm kr lenge...frnds asli prblm ye option hi hai..maan lijiye khaskar ladkiya ki aaj jis baat pe aap apne bf ko chor deti ho kya itni hi asani se kl ko aap apne husband ko chor doge bilkul nhi...kya maa baap ko chor dege bilkul nhi...or chor b diya toh wo ek baar pyar se khenge aap wapas aa jaoge...
Aap sbse ek sawal or bht valid sawal h en rishto me q nhi breakup or feelings khtm ho jana aise concept hote hai..
Let imagine baap ne bete ko thappad mara bete ne kha baap i want breakup suna h kbhi aisa nhi na...fir us pyare rishte me aap q leke aa jate ho jo aapne khud bnaya h...agr wo rishta ek makan h toh uski ek eit eit aapne khud lgayi hai...
Hum sb khte h society es relationship ko galat smjhti h lekin hume smjhna pdega prblm hum me hi hai..koi maa baap uske bcho ko khush hi dekhna chahte h or unki khushi ke liye wo kch b kr dete h...toh wo es rishte ko galat esliye smjhte h qki hum jo man me phle din se option bna kr baidhe h feelings khtm kr lene ka..maa baap darte h kya pta kis din aaye or khey wo rishta khtm kr diya maine...aap sbko ek suggestions h chahe kch b ho jaye apne man se chije khtm krne ka option hta kr dekho tb dekhna life kitni easy ho jati h...jb pyar ke bdle pyar toh gusse ke bdle gussa hi hona chahiye....hum log khud esko ganda bna dete h ye keh ke ki ab wo feelings ni rhi....mera ye view h ki agr maine kisi se pyar kiya h toh last tk krunga chahe wo sath ho ya na ho..
" Ye sb likhne ka sirf ek reason es bhul ki wajah se mai apni life ka sbse pyara rishta toh nhi bcha paya lekin aap sb readers se hath jod ke request h apna rishta bcha lena..rishte bazar me nhi milte h qki...mai haar gya hu lekin jo jo es ko pdh kr jeetega mjhe uski jeet me khud ki jeet nazar aaegi..

Aaj jb mai bimar tha toh umeed tha ki ek no. Hoga aisa jo mjhe baar fone fone krega preshan hoga mere liye...lekin jis insan se mai ye chah rha tha usne kiya b ....lekin na jane q aaj uske preshan hone me wo baat nhi thi..wo mza nhi tha...ha agr mai galat hu toh maaf krna...whi dusri traf ek aisa insan tha jisko mai nhi mna rha tha ki fone krey us insan ko b pta tha ki wo meri phli priority nhi h fir b usne aisa dikhaya ki mai uski phli priority...or mai uske liye likh rha hu usko toh ye b ni btaunga....khair ye difference of priority ho skti h..
Ek insan ne thoda sa dikhaya usey chinta h meri or ek insan ne bht dikhaya fir b mjhe intzar us thode se care ki thi...mere liye uski value bht jada thi....or shyd yhi hoti h feelings....bs yhi...

Now let stop the ridha....let move towards more concrete things...
Aaj metro me aa rha tha toh maine kisi ko ye khte hue suna ki yr uska pyar alag tha eska alag h...after hearing this a question arised in mah mind and that is "really the defination of love is subjective?...like is it really change from person to person...
So now let find the defination of love....
According to google, love is intense feeling of deep affection..now let try to understand this...
Like google is saying love is affection..like u r attached to someone deeply...fir ek question mind me aata h ki ek kutte se affection or ek insan se affection same hota h like...ki mai apne pet se pyar kru apni gf se pyar kru dono same hoga.. Obviously not... Obviously i will be more attached to my gf..so whats the thing which create the diffrence...
So i think affection is wrong term to describe love....
Ek baar meri gf ne ek letter me likha tha aaj hum, mai or tum se hum ho gye..ha sunne me ye bollywood dialogue lgta h...bt let understand ki wo kya khna chahti thi..she want to say ki aaj indiffrence ho gya h..tum me or mjhme..actually she is little bit correct..i think it is true love ki jb mai sochu ki.." ek pratha bcha hua h wo kha le ya mai kha lu koi frk ni pdta..mere account me kch paise h wo uspe khrch ho ya mjhpe koi frk ni pdta..koi mjhe galat khey aansu uske nikle..usko momos khilane ko metro card bechne chley jaye..paise na hone pr bhi utna hi khush rhay..mai success hou apni life me khushi usey miley...stage pe taali mjhe miley..kandhe uske unche ho jaye...so she was correct...aapko ye likhi hui chije impractical lg rhi hongi bt aisa hota h nd m saying that from my experience..it is love..jb tera mera bhul jao sirf hmara bolo...it is love jb aapki gf ko babu se jada bcha sunna psnd ho...so creating indiffrence between two people is love..

Authors view...
According to me love is little more den hum ho jana...ye hai kyi mauko pr khud ko bhul kr samne wale ki khushi dekhna...agr aap khud ko kisi or ke liye change kr skte ho toh wo true love...hai...or wo bs ek baar hi hoga..qki human species me agr ek insan kisi se sbse jada pyar krta h toh wo h khud se..insan khud ko bht chahta h bht jada..lekin fir b wo kisi or ke liye khud ko bdlne ko tyaar ho jata h toh whi hota h love...or insan aisa baar baar esliye ni kr skta qki khud ko bdlna muskil hota h namumkin hota hai..
For example koi aapka gussa seh rha h toh wo aapse bht pyar krta h..aisa nhi h wo aapse darta h balki wo ye sochta h ki gussa kr rha h toh kya hua pyar b toh mjhse krta h...thoda deep h smjhne ki koshish krta...
 Suppose do log h x and y..maan lo kisi moment pe x ne gussa kiya y pe...y ko pta h x ki galti h usey es baat pe gussa ni krna chahiye bt fir bhi y accept krta h baat ko qki wo ye manta h ki x hi h jisne mjhse bht pyar kiya hai..or fact ye jb wo ye maan rha hota h toh bhi usey hurt ho rha hota h..bt fir wo sochta h es chot pe malham bhi x hi lgaega..khud ko niche gira kr kisi or ko khush dekhna hi pyar hota h..
Chahe wo gussa sehna ho ya kisi ka aapke liye rona ho(qki rona kisi ke liye khi na khi kamjori mani jati h ek insan ki lekin agr wo aapni kamjori b dikhane ko tyar h toh wo es baat se nhi dar rha h ki aap niche gir rhay ho esliye wo pyar hai..)
Koi apna ego gira de kisi ke liye wo hi pyar hai..sb ho fir b wo yaad rhay wo pyar hai..
Jb wo seedhiyo pe ladkhada jaye or aapki cheekh nikal jaye wo pyar hai...
Aapko chot lgey or jb jb aap ki chis ki aawaz nikle samne wale ka b gala bhar jaye wo pyar hai..
Wo kitni hi galtiya kr de aap gussa ho lekin fir b uske liye khade ho toh wo pyar hai..
Aap apna religion bhul jao uske liye wo pyar hai..
Khair author is being emotional so let stop it here...
Ha bs pyar dene ka naam hota h selfish hone ka nhi...or kamal ki chij ye h agr dono insan ye chij soche toh in the end dono ka fayada hoga...
Pyar bandhna nhi sikhata hai...or mjhse kisi ne kha ki koi kisi ki jaagir ni hoti mai manta hu...wo bilkul shi tha...plz give respect to ur love or ye b apne experience se keh rha hu..ab tk aap sbko lga hoga i m a perfect guy..bt sry to say m the one who loose the perfect love jst caz of my stupidity...
Ha ek or chij pyar sch me ek baar hi hota hai...aap keh se ek hi chij jisey aap jb past me thay usey perfect smjh ke krte thay whi chij dobara kisi or ke sath kaise perfect feeling ke sath kr skte h..
Love is pure...purity bs ek baar hoti h..
 Yah i loose my perfect one...nd i dnt want anyone...its fact....nd it suggestion to all readers after breakup agr aap move on ho b gye ho toh b man se move on mat ho..kisi ko yaad krke krke rona jada acha h in compare kisi or se fake pyar kr lena..
 Waiting for ur suggestions or comments...

A beautiful journey started

Ye khani sirf do logo ki hai ridha or meri..baki sbhi log background me hai..

Election ka time tha jb mai phli baar us bholi si...4 aankho wali ladki se rubroo hua tha..mai election lad rha tha...mere liye wo matr ek vote tha mera...jaise mai or logo se baat krta tha apne vote ke liye waise hi usse bhi..qki wo meri classmate thi toh mera vote bank rupi cheeni kaise dosti ke paani me ghulne lga pta hi na chla...

Jee haa..wo chappal phne...badrangi rang ke suit salwar..or wo baba aadam ke jmane ka chasma..purn roop se typical bhartiya musalman ab meri dost bn chuki thi..

Hum dono ek dusre ke bilkul viprit(opposite) thay..wo kashmere gate ki shareef ladki mai adarsh nagar ka hawabaaz...wo clg ki chup chup ladki mai clg ka neta..wo bilkul gaay ladki mai delhi ka chalak londa..

Khair bht chije alag thi bs ek chij same tha wo tha "kamla market se le krke kashmere gate tk ka dtc bus ka safar"

Ye safar hi toh tha jisne en do opposite pole ko aapas me baandh rkha tha..

Khair ridha ke karan hi dheere dheere mai muslim parivesh me dhalne lga tha..mjhe "la illaha ill allah muhamadoor rasool allah" ka matlab smjh aane lga tha..

Ridha ke karan hi mera hye salam me bdlne lga tha..

Ab ridha or mai ache dost bn gye thay..hindu muslim dosti ki khani ek alag khani likhne ko tyaar thi..

Phli baar clg me koi apna sa lgne lga tha..mai bolta tha wo sunti thi..shyd usey mjhe sunna psnd tha..
Election mai haar gya lekin shyd bhto ke dil jeet gye tha..bhto ko umeed de gya tha..ridha ne mjhe fir se yakeen dilaya ki mai acha hu..mjhme bhi bht khoobiya hai..ab ridha meri bht achi dost thi..shyd sbse achi...
Wo bht bholi si thi..wo ye pyar waigairh me vishwas ni rkhti thi...mtlb ek sharif ladki ki perfect example.
Hum ache dost thay sb shi chal rha tha bs fir...
19 November 2015 ye wo din tha jb hum sb frnds tradefair gye thay..sb sath thay sb shi tha...bt dheere dheere sb ek ek krke ghar jane lgey or chor gye bs mjhe or ridha ko..pta ni kya hua mjhe sch me ni pta...achanak se mere hath uske hatho ki traf bdh pdey maine uska hath pkda...ye bht ajeeb tha..maine aisa q kiya nhi janta bt jo jada ajeeb tha ki usne hath ni htaya...ye jada ajeeb tha..bs kch smjh ni paya q hua kaise hua...bs sb acha lga...ridha toh thi hi bholi ghabra gyi or ghar jane ki zidd krne lgi...hum ghar chley gye...bs dar tha us din shyd aaj maine apna dost kho diya...

Hey first time i writing on it...even it is motivated,inspired by a person...
Waise toh bht baar likha hai..lekin aise officially first time...
Aap es blog me real life experiences dekh skte ho...jisko aap apne aap se obviously apne aap se related kr paoge...

Well ye first post h us insan ke liye jiska meri life pe bht impact rha hai...to the person who is very close to my heart ...yah uh all are guessing right..

Hey i m confessing here that u r always my first priority....yes i do love uh..yes u loved me a lot in past...well now things are changed...may be u r changed...
"Hahha yes aaj hum "hum se..mai or tum bn gye"...chije bht badal gyi h lekin nhi bdla h toh meri priority mera love...aaj bhi...
Wo barish ki bunde jb mjhe chu kr jati h toh tumhara hi ahsas krati hai..
Tumhare sang bitaya har ek pal ek zindagi lgti hai..
Aaj dobara se ek or zindagi jeene ka jee krta hai..
Tumse fir se whi sb khne ko jee krta hai..
Hu mai laalchi esliye tumhe har pal paane ko jee krta hai...
Wo khti h kshitiz kch ni rha phle jaisa...
Mai khta hu meri aankho se dekho tu toh ab bhi phle jaisi hi hai..
Wo khti h chije bht badal gyi hai...
Mai khta hu koi ni fir chije badal denge..
Wo khti h kshitiz ab baat ni krni.....
Mai bs has bhar deta hu...
Wo khti h ab nhi milna tumse....
Mai bs chup chap aankho se barish kr deta hu...
Ho skta h tumko ye b na psnd aaye...
Khogi aage bdho kshitiz....
Lekin us "ridha" ka kya kru jo har pal rok deti h mjhe..
Aaj juban chup ho chuki kl shyd ungliya b bolna chor de...
Sb khtm ho gya..baki b ho jaega...bs reh jaega "bolna"
Ha thoda dukhi hota hu jb apni choti ungli ko akela dekhta hu..
Thoda dukhi hota hu jb mai "sher" galat pdhta hu toh koi sudharne wala ni hota..
Ha thoda dukhi hota hu jb aaj kl jeans phen pata hu...

Kash sb shi ho pata...meri choti ungli ko uska sathi mil jata..speaker ko shayara mil jata..mjhe bcha mil jata...fir bolna pe koi sath rone wala mil jata..fir koi emotional song send krne wala mil jata..koi zidd krne wala mil jata..selfie le leke preshan krne wala mil jata...koi irritate krne wala mil jata..

Kash bs wo mil jata hum toh sb chorne ko tyar baidhe thay...kash wo ek baar or bharosha kr jata ..kash wo aankhe bnd kr mera chehra imagine kr pata...bs sb hota ye kash bs kash na reh jata...

Tumhare liye h esliye bs ...wo bhi ek daur tha jb hum sda paas thay....bs...