The real year

Hi..as a writer its my duty to write it today..more than this i just forced to write it today..
Ahhh....as 2018 is going on..let take a journey ..when 2017 was ending then in the month of December i got a very drastic change in my life...jo mera khud ka bnaya hua rishta 2 saal ka tha wo khtm ho gya tha so 2018 ki shruat hi maine akele ki...khud ki ladai khud hi ladni chalu kr di thi..
Fir lekin kch mahine baad life thodi akeli si lgne lgi ..fir us jeevan ke sathi jisko kch mahine pehle kho diya tha usey pane ka prayas kiya lekin prayas nakaam rhi..or shyd us bich maine usy b preshan kr diya...

So es saal maine bht chije kho diya bht nuksaan hua..mera..bht jaada...mai bht roya..bht kamjor ho gya mai...bht chije kho di...apna pyaar...wo insan kho diya jo mjhe khud se bhi jada pyaar krta tha...lekin sbse bda nuksan jo hua wo ye hua ki maine khud ko kho diya...maine ek hasta khelta insan kho diya..wo insan kho diya jiska sense of humour sbko khtrnak lgta tha...jo sbko hasata tha wo hsna bhul gya..jo khud pe bht bharosha rkhta tha usne khud pe bharosha rkhna chor diya..bht chije hui..jiski aankho me apne liye sbse jaada ijjat dekhta tha wha ijjat khoti hui dekhi..mai khtm ho gya...wo the kshitiz khtm ho gya...or en sbke liye mai khud jimmedar hu...arey bcha aap toh pyaar ho aap kbhi mera bura ni kr skte...i know...
Lekin kshitiz jrur khtm ho gya es saal...

Baki i learnt a lot this year...i learn ki pyaar mohmaya hai...kch ni hota h pyaar...yha aapka koi ni hai bs time aapka hona chahiye..wrna jo hua mere saath wo bhagwan b utar ke ni bta paate....
Lekin khair baad me jo hua end of year wo b ek chamtkaar tha...tum wapas aai..jiski mai umeed hi kho baidha tha...jis samay koi ni tha mere aas paas...sambhalne waala tumne aake sambhala...
Dekho kbhi ni kha lekin aaj khta b hu or manta b hu ki prerna tu sch me mjhse bht pyaar krti hai...tu sch me waisi h jaisi ladki maine kbhi chahi thi...lekin bs kch majbooriya hai...baki m thankful to god ki i have somebdy like uh in my life...

Baki year was too bad jst hope ek nya phase start ho life ka....

Bs m writing these 4 lines for the last time in my life..

 "Ki tere liye duniya chor di hai...
Ki tjhpe saans aa ke ruke.....
Mai tjhe kitna chahta hu...
Tu ye kbhi soch na skey"...

Baki i hope prerna uh will make afford to made this year a dream year to uh..bs tu mat chor ke jaio yr...

Baki haan i cnt wish any one new year bcz its a promise to men to men...hahaa...