I m nt perfect

Hey aaj Sunday...today I m missing my earlier Sundays...chije bdlne me wqt Ni lgta Lekin bdlna chahiye....
Ye wqt kisi ka Ni hai...aaj es wqt ne hi ek majboot motivated insan Ko kamjor depress bna diya h Khair Esme aapki koi galti Ni h..bs wqt mera Ni rha..
Jis insan ki pehli priority Mai Tha aaj Mai uski priority Ni rha bs wqt mera Ni rha..
Wo khti h tum bht insecure ho...
Mai naak unchi krke khta hu Haan Mai apni duniya ki sbse achi chij Ko lekr insecure hu...
Wo khti h tumne mjhpe gussa Kiya Mai khta hu us gusse ka Karan b pyar tha ..
Wo khti h hmara koi future nhi h...
Mai khta hu mera past present or future b tum hi ho...

Maine man khatta kr diya aapka...PTA h mjhe...AAP toh beintha pyar karte thay mjhse....bs ab sb thik h bs mera wqt galat ho gya h..

Ab chije bdlne ki baat karta hu toh usko life film si LG jati h...
Film hi Shi lead role toh aapka hi hai...
Likhne se b Darne LGA hu ki kya PTA kon si chij buri LG jaye...
Care nhi krne humne aapki Aisa aarop hai hum pe..yakeen kriye Apne bche ki tarah pala tha...
Kya khata ho gyi humse aisi ki Jo maaf Ni ki ja skti....
 " Ek mera wo wqt..jb SB mera tha...
Jb gaane mere liye sune jate...fone mere liye chlaya Jata...unke aansu b mere thay...jb Mai ghadi samay dekh ke bta deta meri mohatarma kya kr rhi hogi...
Chije bdal gyi h ab...
Wqt mera Ni rha...biwi ne talak le liya..bcha chor ke chla gya..ab kch PTA Ni chal pata unka...Dil baichain Rhta Lekin jubaan puchne ki himmat Ni kr pata..kya PTA unhe fir kch Bura LG jaye...

Unse Mai khta pyar krti ho mjhse...wo bholi si shakal aankh me thoda SA Pani lake gale LG ke keh deta tha khud se Jada...fir Mai puchta tha hamesha krogi wo keh dete thay haa....or bs wo Haan meri life ki sari prblms dur Mita deti thi...bs wo Haan Ni rha h..

Wo preshan Hoti thi or mere kandhe pe sar rkh deti thi or khti thi yha bht Sukoon milta...(yakeen krna Sukoon Shabd likhte time fut or do pda Mai)..ha wo khti thi Sukoon milta usko kya PTA jb wo mere kandhe pe sar rkh deti thi..toh usse Jada Sukoon mjhe mil Jata tha..chlte chlte wo apni choti ungli meri ungli me FSA deti thi..TB usko kya PTA meri ungli Ko TB ek Ghar SA mil Jata tha..
Wo aati thi khti thi kshitiz Baal khule rkhu ya baandh lu...arey tum toh mjhe jaise mrji achi lagti ho..Lekin tum jb puchti thi toh Aisa lagta tha ki Mai hi khubsoorat BN rha hu...
Milne se pehle tum mjhse puchti thi ki kl kya phengo...bs ye sawal mjhe handsome bna deta tha...
Sare Lamhe tjhe khaas bna dete h..jb Mai 7 din liye gaaon ja rha tha tu kitna royi thi...aaj 7 mahine se alag kr diya h khud se socho Mai kitna Roya hounga...
Bina maange apni pics send krti thi aaj mangne pe b Ni milti socho Mai kitna dukhi hota hounga...
Chije khtam hui..SB bdli.. mjhse galti b hui Lekin Mai galat nhi tha..ab AAP sochoge ye SB baatey ho chuki h Mai sun chuki hu SB..ha I know bs esliye keh rha hu ye SB qki m missing uh a lot today...

Mjhe song send krke khud khush Hoti thi .Mai b koi emotional movie dekh ke sirf tumko hi yaad krta tha. .kitna acha tha na SB...kitna khush thay hum..dono hi. .Shyd tum Jada khush thi..kaise subah ke 8 se 6 BJ jate thay PTA hi Ni chlta tha..tum kch b krti thi sochti thi kshitiz Ko btaungj.. kshitiz ke saath Murthal jaungi...ice skating krne jaungi..hill station jaungi... candle lite dinner....Mai car drive Kru..kitna sare sapne thay na tumhare...tum kitni khush thi..maine SB khrab kr diya..tumhara Dil Tod diya...tumhare sapne Tod diye...toh akela chor diya maine...Mai bht Bura hu..bht Jada...Shi se pyar b Ni Chuka paya tumhara..tumhari paneer ki theory khrab kr di..tumhe pyar se nafrat kra diya.tumhari perfect ki defination Badal di maine....tumhe relationship se ghin aane lagi..Mera pyaar haar gya Babu...mera pyar haar gya...us soft si ladki Ko maine kathor bnne pe majboor kr diya..sari khusiya uski tbah kr di maine...mjhe koi haq Ni tha tumpe gussa krne ka...hamesha kha h aa jao...aaj keh rha hu " Mt aana Babu fir se kbhi mere paas..Mai bht Bura hu...Mai acha nahi hu..maine bht hurt Kiya h tumhe..kbhi Mt aana mere paas kbhi Ni.."

AApne kha tha na chije dono ke man se khtm hone lagi thi toh Shyd hum dono hi ye na smjh paye Jha hum Roz 8-8 ghante milte thay wha 8-8 din me milenge toh chije khrab honi hi thi..

Bs Haan AAP ye keh dete ho kl alag hona tha aaj ho Gye...nhi ye Shi Ni h...Mai ladta Apne pyar ke liye...bs ek chij Ni bhuli jati yhi ki "yaad h mujhko tu ne kha tha tumse nhi ruthenge kbhi"

Meri strength.. inspiration....motivation SB ja rhi h tumhare saath...

Bs sare readers Ko ek advice h Jo b kbhi b en blogs Ko pdhay meri Ridha Ko galat mt smjhana...agr koi galat tha toh wo Mai Tha....or Ridha aapko kch Bura LGA ho ye pdhne ke Baad toh sbke samne maafi mangta hu