A last note to delhi

Pta ni q delhi se bht gaadha rishta h hmara..jb aaj subah subah mail dekha ki mse ki traf se mail aaya h confrence ke liye bula rhay hai..tb lga ki ek nye safar ki shuruat ho rhi hai..man khush tha lekin ganga ki kasam thode dukhi b thay...shyd darta hu mai delhi ko chorne ..bht kch diya h es seher ne mjhe bht kch...shyd jeevan ki har khushi de di h esne mjhe....jb mai jhangir puri se metro me baidhta hu toh huda city center tk ek metro station aisa nhi h jha se koi yaad na judi ho..chahe wo adarsh ngar pr niche jate hue upar metro station pe khade kisi insan ko dekhte hue jana ho..ya fir azadpur ho ...model town ki jheel me maggie khana ho...gtb nagar ke momos ho...vishvidyalay pe ghanto baidhna ho..ya wo meeting point ho....ya vidhan sabha...wo kch ganda lgna ho...ya civil lines pe apni life ka best new year gift milna ho....or "kashmere gate" yha pe toh dil tham jata hai...kon khta h kashmere gate pe bht bhid hoti hai..mai toh bhid me b pehchan lunga...ha yha bht meethi yaade hai....last me aa ke bht bekar yaadey b bn gyi chahe wo mera rona ya kch bhi...fir chandni chowk or chawri bazar pe ruth ke baidh jana ho..."new delhi" esko kaise bhul skta hu..ye metro station toh jaan hua krti thi...sala safar hi yhi se shuru hua tha..
Ye 6 wali hai, ye vishvidyalaya ki hai, esme bht bheed hai, agli me pkka chlenge...ye keh keh ke kitni hi metro chori h sirf samay katne ke liye....
Fir rajiv chowk ka palika ho...ya janpath...ha bhyi whi janpath jha se tum log har achi dress ko reject kr dete thay or mai piche piche ghumta ghumta irritate hota tha..ya whi palika jha hmare farewell pe kisi mere khas ne bht zidd krke mjhe kurta dilane ki zidd kri thi....
Ya fir wo aage jaage udyog bhawan ho...haha...yha bht achi memory hai...ye akela metro station hoga jha maine kisi ke sath hide n seek khela...ya m serious metro station pe hide n seek....or yha ghanto ghanto baidha b hua hu...
Sb khas tha chahe wo arjangadh ho..ghitorni....(clg wale kaka ne dekha tha yha) ho..chahe huda city center pe jake chutiya katna ho..
Ae...delhi tu toh janti h tjhse kitna pyar krta hu mai...mai b bht emotional hu chorte time...aa apni aankhey bnd kr delhi...tjhe aaj last baar gale se lga lu...meri rooh me basti thi....mjhe toh teri gandi hwa ki bhi aadat ho gyi. .or mere piche mere apne logo ka khyal rkhio...qki jb dobara aaunga toh tjhse hisaab lunga sbhi chijo ka...

Aaj ek baat bolu tjhe..schi tjhe man ni h chor ke jane ka...maa baap b ni chahte jau..lekin tjhe toh sb pta hai na...ki q jana h mujhe..mai delhi ko kbhi ni bhulunga...delhi ne bht pyar diya h mjhe...

Or baki baat rhi maa baap dosto ki toh mjhe pta h kch din mjhe jrur yaad kroge tum log...mai b krunga bht krunga qki maine toh chaha hi ni tha kbhi ye sb ho...koshish b kri bht ki ye sab na ho...lekin ab ho gya toh koi ni...toh aap sb khush rhna hmesha....bs...or delhi tjhse or delhi walo aap se b kbhi koi galti hui ho meri traf se toh uske liye maaf krna..bs delhi jb agli baar aaunga toh tjhse pucbunga ki meri galti kya thi jo mjhe khud se alag krna pda tjhe..or baki tu ne jo mjhe memories di h uske sahare toh mai ek or life jee lunva..,😑😚😚

My whole readers know ki maine ek insan ke alawa kbhi kisi ke liye kch ni likha bt today i m writing about one of my friend..."hira" ...sb khte h bchi si hai...mai b khta hu kb bdi hogi....pta hai yr mai bht simple sa aadmi hu...simple si baat bolta hu...jo hu real...hu...beshak log mjhe neta bolte ho..lekin mai thoda alag kism ka neta hu...mai wo neta hu jo emotions jahir krne me vishwas rkhta hu...mere paas kch b ni h siway meri simplicity ke....sari chije dil se krne ke alawa...bhto ne en chijo time to time psnd b kiya hai...so mai jo b likh rha hu usi simplicity ke sath likh rha hu..
Par bs dil pe hath rkh ke ek chij khunga...es bich agr yr tu nhi hoti toh mera kya hi hota mai..toh bilkul akela tha...lekin tu ne mjhe har wqt sambhala...mai jb koi status lgta tha tu uspe acha cmnt krti thi taki mjhe alone sa na feel ho...life ke bht bure time se nikla hu mai...bt tu ne mera har wqt sath diya...tu es bich mere sath khadi rhi har wqt...
Aaj b mjhe sch me lgta hai ki tjhe dukh h mere jane ka lekin tu toh sb janti h ki mere liye bhi kitna muskil h meri delhi ko chor ke jana...wo b aise chor ke jana...mera toh sb kch yhi chut jayaega...yr aisa thodi h ki mai wha ja ke bht enjoy krunga...mjhe b yaad aaegi tum sb ki sari chijo ki...balki mai wha akela rhunga....rounga toh koi chup b ni kraya..so mere liye bht muskil tu ne itni baar roka mjhe sch me bht bht bht acha lga. Tu ne mera sath diya meri life ke sbse muskil daur me uske liye thank uh....koi ni tha jb tu thi mere liye....i still remember mjhe rona aata tha mai tjhe fone krta tha or tu khti ro mat sb thik ho jaega....bs bhagwan aise dost sb ko de...even mai toh bht lucky rha hu bht chijo...ha kyi chije mjhe bht buri lgi...kyi chije meri life me b shi ni hui...bt still i will say mjhe bht chije achi mili..bhagwan aisi kismat sb ko de...
Ye last blog h jo mai apne clg life se related kch likh rha hu...life me mjhse ek bht ache insan ne kha aage bdhne ko so mjhe aage bdhna h esliye ab emotions ko htana pdega...wrna baki tu toh janti hi h mai bht jldi ro deta hu....so ye esliye tha agr aage kbhi tere liye mai kch jaahir na kru toh tu ye hmesha smjhio ki mere dil me hmesha tere liye rhega...agr kbhi koi tjhe jruat hogi toh tere liye flight pkd ke delhi b aa jaunga mai...qki kshitiz ranjan jb kamjor tha life me tu uske sath thi....so thank you...for being alws for me....

Today is one of the fine day of my life..and m going share the reason...
Cat is my dream..iim is my dream...its nt only the better carrear option for me instead it was a dream...of two people...aaj mai apne institute gya tha...wha pe aaj mjhe mauka mila nye cat aspirants ko suggestions, apna experience share krne ka...actually ye mere liye bht bdi baat hai..jis institute me mai roz baidh ke apne spne jeeta tha...alag alag ko sunta tha wha aaj bolne ka mauka mila...as i got good score in my cat last year thats y..they called me..apne spne ko pura krna or baki log jo whi spna dekh rhay h unki b madad krna ye apne aap me bdi baat..usme jo mjhe sun rhay thay kyi student aise b thay jo last year mere batch mate thay aaj..mjhe sun rhay thay so it was bit kind of acheivement for me..or mjhe bolna hmesha se psnd rha hai..
I dont know now i m goona fulfill my dream or not ..bcz cause of some personal reason i just changed my path...i have to change my field...shyd banglore nhi chennai hi tha meri kismat me...
Khair aaj bcho ko banglore bhejne ka rasta dikha kr khud ka 1% sapna pura kr hi liya

Hey I shared my last blog to uh 3 only..and hira or Rani tum dono ke Rply ne mujhe force Kiya ye dobara likhne Ko.
Rani tum emotional ho gayi ye mere liye bht bdi baat h... actually Mai toh already bht emotional hu...tere rply ne or emotional kr diya..PTA h tum kch log ho jinke Sath Mai hamesha baidh ke Rona psnd krunga..logo ki CLG life achi hoti bt meri toh full of dreams thi just caz of people like uh..jinhone hamesha har chij pe appreciate Kiya...
Aaj emotional Shyd esliye qki wakai Mera Dil Janta h ab sari chije bdal chuki hai..PTA nhi hum logo ki Dosti or kitne time chlegi..Mai or kitne time tum logo ke Sath reh paunga..bt jo b tha bht spcl tha...Rani tera wo apni studies se related chije mjhse puchna...CLG bht km aana Lekin jb b aana ghumne chlna..wo India gate pe hum log jb Gye thay yaad h maine kha tha koi photo le lega hmari or next day newspaper me photo aayi thi remember...
Haste haste ab bs thoda tham SA jata hu..
Thoda Ruk SA jata hu...
Fir sochta hu ki jb insan khush rhta h or wo jo vaade krta h ki hum log Sath rhenge ye Dosti hamesha aisi hi rhegi..
Kya Aisa sch me ho pata hai...
Khair jo b ho future I don't know I alwz feel proud while having people like uh..jinhone hamesha meri achai hi dekhi...khne Ko mera religion tumse alag h Lekin mjhe kbhi feel Ni hone diya tumne chahe..wo mere Sath khana khana ho..ya kisi muslim ladki ka es Hindu ke Mathe pe Tika krna ho..SB kch bht spcl tha...
Ha Mai Apne or sehrish dono ke traf se want to thank uh and hira both ki tum dono ne Hume or hmare rishte Ko bht ache se smjha Shyd tumhare Bina hum dono kbhi itne khush Ni rhte...har kadam hum dono ka Sath diya..
Beshak aaj chije Badal gyi ho..wo Badal gyi Shyd ab Mai b Badal gya Lekin es chakkar me Mai tum dono ki value Kam Ni kr skta..
Last blog me Rani maine tjhe apni taraf se thx Kiya tha es blog me Mai tjhe hum dono ki traf se thx khta hu...hum dono ke rishte Ko itne ache se smjhne ke liye..tum dono na hote toh PTAni ye Safar kaisa hota hmara...so bht bda wala thank uh...mjhe meri life ki best memories Dene ke liye..thank uh

Hey a very happy birthday to uh...Mai auto ki tarah status pe photos upload krna nhi Janta hu...ha likhna Janta hu so here m writing for uh...
Bht khaas rha h hmara rishta bht utar chadav se bhara agr tu mjhse sbse Jada gussa Hui h toh CLG ke piche mjhe biryani b sbse Jada tu ne hi khilayi hai..SB Ko lgta h tu moodial actually mjhe b lgta h Lekin wo PTA h matter Ni krta jb tera Dil dekhta hu toh..tu Dil ki saaf h sbse achi chij h...or esko bnaye rkhio...gussa km kr de thoda gusse se bht bht nuksan hota h qki...
Mai ek incident share krna chahunga..
Jb hum aagra trip se aa rhay thay teri tbyit khrab ho gayi thi..SB tere aas paas thay...tu unconscious thi...sehrish tere Kareeb badihi thi bt tu continuosly mera naam le rhi thi bs ki kshitiz mjhe kch ho rha h kind of..ye chij mjhe Baad me sehrish ne hi note krwaya tha .ye chij hi dikhata h ki Mai kitni ahmiyat rkhta hu tere liye...tjhe kitna trust h mjhpe...
Tum SB CLG time me mjhse har chij me advice lete thay jo mjhe bht acha lagta tha wo Apne AAP me spcl feel krwa deta that..
Ha ab chije waisi Ni rhi h logo ke man se meri ahmiyat km ho gayi h...CLG khtm ho gya h Lekin tum SB mere Dil me hamesha rhoge...tum SB ho jisne meri CLG life Ko or acha bnaya hai...
Tjhse or hira se meri achi wali Dosti beshak sehrish ki wajah se hui ho bt tum dono ne kbhi mjhe ye feel Ni hone diya ki tum dono phle sehrish ki dosto...
Es janmdin pe I just wanna thank uh for being with me....

My best bday..

Aaj Mai apni ek memory share krna chahta hu...apna 20th bday of year 2016...oh my god....this is the day..jiske liye Mai dobara mar b skta hu...aaj meri Ridha Ko jaano AAP log....

PTA h aaj se pehle tk maine kbhi bday Ni manaya..esliye toh pyar karta hu aapse itna..aapne kya kya nhi Kiya mjhe khush krne Ko..PTA h apni entire life ka first bday cake maine aapke Sath cut Kiya...aapki wajah se cut Kiya...ye baat mere liye bht Jada emotional hai..or bht important bhi..itni ki ye baat toh apni wife Ko b btaunga..uh made my day that day...Shyd us din Ni kha tha aaj khta hu...thank uh for the day..thank uh so much...mere liye shirt leke aaye thay or colour kitna important h wo mere liye ye toh btane ki jruat Ni h Shyd...m sorry tumhe toh PTA Hoga na kis liye qki Mai aapki us shirt Ko justify...Ni kr paya..presidential speech Ni de paya usey phen ke...I know mjhse khi Jada aapka man tha Mai election ldu nhi lad paya m sry for that...wo shirt hamesha mere paas rhegi..hamesha..

Or us key ring Ko toh koi Ni bhul skta..ek whi toh saboot h mere paas ki AAP mere se kitna pyar krte thay..kash mere wo din kbhi khtm na hote..meri Ridha meri ek smile ke liye kch b kr jati h...or I know future me koi b itna mere liye Ni kr paega...thank uh so much for everything uh had given me....na AAP jaisa koi tha or na ho skta hai...

21st bday 2017...

Ye Jada khas tha esliye qki es bday pe mere paas paise nhi thay or meri Ridha Apne account se paise Nikal ke layi thi taki wo mujhe meri favourite place pe le ja skey...kitni gf Apne bf pe khrch wo b bf ke bday pe...meri Ridha toh itni khaas thi...usne sbse se mujhe video msgs send krwaye thay...bht mehnat ki thi....sbse rulane wala wo aapka mere liye paise lekr aana tha...mere liye mere bday spcly shirt khridwana that bs..esliye Rota hu Mai..koi Ni kr skta mjhse itna pyar I know....thank uh thank uh thank uh...for everything...thank uh...mjhe hamesha khush krne ke liye....ye meri puri zindagi ka sbse acha rishta tha or aage kbhi Aisa rishta nhi milega mjhe I know...I literally feel proud ki Ridha jaisa insan mere se itna pyar karta tha ye mere liye bht bdi baat hai...

Usne ek din mjhse kha tumhare andar ka charm khtm ho gya hai...ho gya ho ga madam...Lekin itna Janta hu madam jo adna SA bcha 1st year me ja ke 3rd ki class me speech de skta hai...or taali Bator skta h uska charm Shyd hi khtm ho kbhi ..

Hum insan ki galti hoti h hmari soch materialistic hai...Lekin har chij naapi toli nhi ja skti..

Madam pyar ek ahsas hota hai...Khair ye baat toh aapse behter koi Ni smjh skta..pyar me naapa tola nhi jta . Kami khubi Ni dekhi jati agr aisa hota toh fir pyar ke liye b job ki tarah interview hua krte..jo acha krta usey rkh Liya jata h...ye toh bs ho jata h..or bs ek Baar ho gya fir toh ho hi gya bs...

Ye PTA Ni kon log h jo breakup,move on jaise concept lekr aaye thay...mere hisab se wo toh materialistic relationship me hota hoga..Dil ke rishto me Aisa kha hota h..Dil toh bechara itna kamjor hota h ki wo toh tez Aawaz se hi ghabra jata h fir itne bdey bdey Shabd wo kha se jhel paega...

AAP kisi Ko bhul jate ho...man se chije khtm kr lete ho ye aapki neeji psnd hai..Lekin hakeekat me Aisa hota nhi h eska sirf aapko bharam hota h...or hota h toh Aisa hona nhi chahiye...or Maan lijiye Aisa ho jata h true feelings khtm ho jati h toh ye line pdhne ke Baad mjhpe Mt hasiyega khud pe hasiyega..ki Shi h ye hasi kya??

Kbhi kisi Ko SB dekr usey praya krna Shi Ni hota hai...ha ye SB aapke liye Ni h..qki AAP toh khoge ye SB sun chuki hu ..

Ye bhar keh Dena ki ye life ka phase hai tum b thik ho jaoge ye Shi Ni h..khud socho jisko kbhi pyar wo pyar mang rha h toh wo galat tum pyar ke bdle me dya de rhay ho tum thik kaise??

Meri dikkat ye hai Mai toh ye SB keh b Ni pa rha hu qki unko Bura LG jata hai..unko lgta h unko galat q keh rha hu Mai....Naah...AAP galat Ni ho kash galat hote ye SB kbhi likhne ki jruat hi na pdti...

Jb kisi Ko bcha hota h or wo 2 saal ka ho jata h TB tk wo maa BAAP Ko kitni yaadey de ja Chuka hota hai..Esne phli Baar papa in kha..baidna KB sikha..chlna kB sikha..bolna kB sikha...bht kch....jo yaad maa BAAP marte time tk yaad rkhte h...fir bdey ho kr diye Gye life ki 2 saal ki memories Ko AAP ye keh kr kaise khtm krna chah rhay ho .."bhar Niklo en chijo se...life ka phase h SB thik ho jaega...ab hum baat Ni karenge qki fir whi chije hongi....really uh think u r right...".... bht bdi bdi batey go get a life...Bura mat manna AAP toh bht chote thay JB ungli thaami thi ab bht bdey se LG rhay ho...PTA h mjhe aapko meri bht chinta hai..ghabraiye mat aaj ye promise marunga nhi kbhi...arey kya tha Mai kitna Badal gya hu...bs esliye ki tumhe nhi khona chahta that .tumne toh kch na dekha...bs ho Gye alag toh ho Gye....mjhe PTA h AAP kbhi Sath Ni aaoge Lekin es faisle khi kch toh galti hai..Khair aapko meri batey galat lgi hogi so m sorry for that...

I m nt perfect

Hey aaj Sunday...today I m missing my earlier Sundays...chije bdlne me wqt Ni lgta Lekin bdlna chahiye....
Ye wqt kisi ka Ni hai...aaj es wqt ne hi ek majboot motivated insan Ko kamjor depress bna diya h Khair Esme aapki koi galti Ni h..bs wqt mera Ni rha..
Jis insan ki pehli priority Mai Tha aaj Mai uski priority Ni rha bs wqt mera Ni rha..
Wo khti h tum bht insecure ho...
Mai naak unchi krke khta hu Haan Mai apni duniya ki sbse achi chij Ko lekr insecure hu...
Wo khti h tumne mjhpe gussa Kiya Mai khta hu us gusse ka Karan b pyar tha ..
Wo khti h hmara koi future nhi h...
Mai khta hu mera past present or future b tum hi ho...

Maine man khatta kr diya aapka...PTA h mjhe...AAP toh beintha pyar karte thay mjhse....bs ab sb thik h bs mera wqt galat ho gya h..

Ab chije bdlne ki baat karta hu toh usko life film si LG jati h...
Film hi Shi lead role toh aapka hi hai...
Likhne se b Darne LGA hu ki kya PTA kon si chij buri LG jaye...
Care nhi krne humne aapki Aisa aarop hai hum pe..yakeen kriye Apne bche ki tarah pala tha...
Kya khata ho gyi humse aisi ki Jo maaf Ni ki ja skti....
 " Ek mera wo wqt..jb SB mera tha...
Jb gaane mere liye sune jate...fone mere liye chlaya Jata...unke aansu b mere thay...jb Mai ghadi samay dekh ke bta deta meri mohatarma kya kr rhi hogi...
Chije bdal gyi h ab...
Wqt mera Ni rha...biwi ne talak le liya..bcha chor ke chla gya..ab kch PTA Ni chal pata unka...Dil baichain Rhta Lekin jubaan puchne ki himmat Ni kr pata..kya PTA unhe fir kch Bura LG jaye...

Unse Mai khta pyar krti ho mjhse...wo bholi si shakal aankh me thoda SA Pani lake gale LG ke keh deta tha khud se Jada...fir Mai puchta tha hamesha krogi wo keh dete thay haa....or bs wo Haan meri life ki sari prblms dur Mita deti thi...bs wo Haan Ni rha h..

Wo preshan Hoti thi or mere kandhe pe sar rkh deti thi or khti thi yha bht Sukoon milta...(yakeen krna Sukoon Shabd likhte time fut or do pda Mai)..ha wo khti thi Sukoon milta usko kya PTA jb wo mere kandhe pe sar rkh deti thi..toh usse Jada Sukoon mjhe mil Jata tha..chlte chlte wo apni choti ungli meri ungli me FSA deti thi..TB usko kya PTA meri ungli Ko TB ek Ghar SA mil Jata tha..
Wo aati thi khti thi kshitiz Baal khule rkhu ya baandh lu...arey tum toh mjhe jaise mrji achi lagti ho..Lekin tum jb puchti thi toh Aisa lagta tha ki Mai hi khubsoorat BN rha hu...
Milne se pehle tum mjhse puchti thi ki kl kya phengo...bs ye sawal mjhe handsome bna deta tha...
Sare Lamhe tjhe khaas bna dete h..jb Mai 7 din liye gaaon ja rha tha tu kitna royi thi...aaj 7 mahine se alag kr diya h khud se socho Mai kitna Roya hounga...
Bina maange apni pics send krti thi aaj mangne pe b Ni milti socho Mai kitna dukhi hota hounga...
Chije khtam hui..SB bdli.. mjhse galti b hui Lekin Mai galat nhi tha..ab AAP sochoge ye SB baatey ho chuki h Mai sun chuki hu SB..ha I know bs esliye keh rha hu ye SB qki m missing uh a lot today...

Mjhe song send krke khud khush Hoti thi .Mai b koi emotional movie dekh ke sirf tumko hi yaad krta tha. .kitna acha tha na SB...kitna khush thay hum..dono hi. .Shyd tum Jada khush thi..kaise subah ke 8 se 6 BJ jate thay PTA hi Ni chlta tha..tum kch b krti thi sochti thi kshitiz Ko btaungj.. kshitiz ke saath Murthal jaungi...ice skating krne jaungi..hill station jaungi... candle lite dinner....Mai car drive Kru..kitna sare sapne thay na tumhare...tum kitni khush thi..maine SB khrab kr diya..tumhara Dil Tod diya...tumhare sapne Tod diye...toh akela chor diya maine...Mai bht Bura hu..bht Jada...Shi se pyar b Ni Chuka paya tumhara..tumhari paneer ki theory khrab kr di..tumhe pyar se nafrat kra diya.tumhari perfect ki defination Badal di maine....tumhe relationship se ghin aane lagi..Mera pyaar haar gya Babu...mera pyar haar gya...us soft si ladki Ko maine kathor bnne pe majboor kr diya..sari khusiya uski tbah kr di maine...mjhe koi haq Ni tha tumpe gussa krne ka...hamesha kha h aa jao...aaj keh rha hu " Mt aana Babu fir se kbhi mere paas..Mai bht Bura hu...Mai acha nahi hu..maine bht hurt Kiya h tumhe..kbhi Mt aana mere paas kbhi Ni.."

AApne kha tha na chije dono ke man se khtm hone lagi thi toh Shyd hum dono hi ye na smjh paye Jha hum Roz 8-8 ghante milte thay wha 8-8 din me milenge toh chije khrab honi hi thi..

Bs Haan AAP ye keh dete ho kl alag hona tha aaj ho Gye...nhi ye Shi Ni h...Mai ladta Apne pyar ke liye...bs ek chij Ni bhuli jati yhi ki "yaad h mujhko tu ne kha tha tumse nhi ruthenge kbhi"

Meri strength.. inspiration....motivation SB ja rhi h tumhare saath...

Bs sare readers Ko ek advice h Jo b kbhi b en blogs Ko pdhay meri Ridha Ko galat mt smjhana...agr koi galat tha toh wo Mai Tha....or Ridha aapko kch Bura LGA ho ye pdhne ke Baad toh sbke samne maafi mangta hu

Confession

I was the very selfish person...bt I am nt now..hey Ridha...tum hamesha sochti rhi ki Maine tumhe pyar krna sikhaya galat Balki tumne mujhe sikhaya pyar me koi limits Ni hoti....I learnt a lot from uh...
Jb Mai preshan hota tha kisi chij se tum aayi thi or khti thi...I know tum ye kr skte ho...toh mjhe inspiration milti thi...
Jb koi mere piche khta tha kshitiz toh Aisa h waisa h or jb Mai preshan hota tha tum aayi thi or khti thi mera kshitiz toh sbse acha h...wo motivate krta tha mjhe ..
Most important jb Mai apni life me bht tough phase se ja rha tha cat ke time... everyday I remember uh was dere to support me...bs pure din me Mai tumse 5-7 min baat krta tha bt still everyday came with a smile...
Us frustration me Maine gussa b Kiya tumpe...Lekin tumhare pyar ne uspe Mita diya...we be apart ...alag ho Gye hum...

Bt today I confess uh here ki I always loved uh always means always...Mai jo kr skta tha maine Kiya tha Ridha...bs kch nhi Sambhal pata tha Apne gussa Ko bt mera Bhagwan Janta h TB b bht pyar Kiya tha tumko..maa ki Kasam bht pyar Kiya tha tumko..meri SB kch h tum thi best friend...girl friend...family SB....bht Khushi hoti thi jb tution fees milti thi ye soch ke ki ab Mai Ridha ache se reh paenge...har jagah Apne sath dekha tha...har jagah...kch b krta tha toh Ridha tumhare liye b sochta tha...
Tum hi toh thi jiske liye mjhe Rona bht psnd tha bht Jada....Ridha sari chije mere against ho gyi thi...hmara religion...tumhari family..mera gussa....SB mere against ho gya tha esliye Mai galat saabit ho gya tumhari nazro me...wrna Mai sch me galat Ni tha..Ridha hum km Milne lgey thay esliye hmare bich prblm aane lagi thi...maine toh kbhi nhi khona chaha tha tumhe kbhi nhi...Lekin tumhe kho diya maine..mera bcha kho gya...mera Sapna tut gya..
Aapne kha ki jb AAP rote thay Mai bsy tha nhi kbhi nhi tha bsy....us time me b sbke samne rota tha aapke liye...Khair Mai Jada kch nhi likh paunga....bs I loved uh at every moment of my life bs..

Feelings

Today i was lying on the hospital bed...bht chije dimag me aa rhi thi dar b rha tha bht..
Baki ye wo time hota h jb aap bht chije sochte ho bht chije aapke dimag me chlti h..
Aaj important din the mere liye bht...aaj bht chije sochne ko mili...us soch ka ek roop...

Pyar aapko majboot bnata hai...jb pyar aapko kamjor bnane lgey toh smjho kch galat hai...pyar me aap galtiya b kr skte ho lekin kmjor bnna shi ni h..ye pyar kya smjhta h khud ki usne apne pyar ko bht khushi di toh aaj usey usko rulane ka haq mil gya...usey akela chor dene ka haq mil gya..nhi..bilkul nhi..
Sare readers ko ek baat khni h ye pyar h khel nhi jo aap ek din aate ho or keh dete ho feelings ni rhi..arey gussa samne wale insan ko gussa dila skta h feeling kaise khtm kr skta hai bhyi..
For example maan lijiye mai apne papa se bht pyar krta hu wo mjhpe kisi baat pe bht gussa krte h aisi baat pe jisme meri koi galti ni rhti toh mjhe unpe obviously gussa aaega..lekin jra aap sb sochiyega kya mai unse pyar krna bnd kr dunga nhi na..es umeed me jrur rhunga ki papa aaye mjhse maafi maangey..mjhe mnaye ha ye unka farz h lekin kya aapko ni lgta unhe maaf krke gla lga lena b mera farz h...kaise khtm ho jaegi feelings....or aise khtm honi hoti toh koi beta apne baap se pyar ni kr pata qki har baap ne kbhi na kbhi apne bete pe gussa kiya hota hai..
Toh fir ye logic hum us pyare rishte pe q lga dete h jo humne khud bnaya hota h??
Q jb sb kch shi hota h toh wo insan perfect rhta h or jb wo khud pe thoda control na kr paye toh wo insan galat ho jata?
Hmara maapne ka tarika itna chota kaise ho skta h??
Jis pyar me ek samay hum kch b krne ko tyaar hote h bdey bdey vaade krte h ki hmesha tumhara sath dunga ya dungi toh q kisi ek insan ki galti pr hum usey ye keh dete h khtm kro yr ab sch me wo wali feelings nhi h...
Jb tk sb shi tha tb tk aap shi thay toh kha gya wo unlimited pyar jo har relationship ki shruat me hota hai....q insan ko dheere dheere whi chije napasand hone lgti hai...
Jb aap maa baap se jhut bol kr kisi se milne jate ho wo b bht khushi khushi toh aap kaise ek breakup jaise chote shabd se khud ko rok lete ho...kya ye breakup shbd aapke maa baap se bdh kr hai..?
Bilkul nhi bs frk ye h ab aap judge krne lgey ho..or aise hi log es kahavat ko bdhawa dete h ki pyar andha hota hai...
Bt let me remind uh....it to the entire youth jo khta h ki mai usse bht pyar krta hu...pyar bilkul andha nhi hota h..pyar bht smjhdar hota hai...pyar wo hota h jb koi apni mahine ki tution fees apni gf ke hath me la kr rkh deta h or khta h ab tumhe mahine ka khrcha chlana h...kya aap kbhi kaise keh skte ho aisa pyar andha ho skta h...pyar wo hota h jb aapki jeb me ek rupya na ho toh ladki khey mjhe bhuk ni h...jo aap usey na dila pao wo khey mjhe ye psnd ni h...aisa pyar kaise andha ho skta hai..
Lekin aaj kl ke hum log esko apne according lene lgey...aap sb ko ek baat khna chahta hu pyar me agr kisi pe gussa krna galat h toh us gusse ke chakkar me feelings khtm kr lena man se bhi utna hi galat h...
Acha btao relationship me aane se phle kya aap me se kisi ne bhi kbhi koi bond sign kiya tha kya ki agr tum gussa kroge toh mere man se pyar khtm ho jaega..tb toh bda emotiinal ho ke aap sb ne keh diya hoga nhi babu tum jaise b rhoge tumse mai itna hi pyar krungi..now think did uh really justify ur statement...hum insan aise kaise ho jate h jo apni baat shi ni kr pate...hum sb ko kl ko upar jana..jo b aise feelings khtm kr deta h wo bs apni aankh bnd krle...or soche agr kl upar wala puche ki usne gussa kiya tumpe wo galat h bilkul lekin tumne feelings khtm kr li kya wo shi h??
Kya aap justify kr do ge apne jwab ko..
Agr haa toh jab mai 7 saal ka tha mere papa ne mjhe thappad mara tha us din nafrat kr leni chahiye thi mjhe...lekin mai toh aaj b bht pyar krta hu unse..ab jada intellectual log aaenge or khenge maa baap ka pyar alga hota h let me tell uh frnd last blog me b smjhaya tha ki pyar pyar hota h bs frk pta h kya hai ki jis din se hum rishte me aate h jo sbke liye bht pyara dono log ek dusre se beintha pyar krte hai us rishte me hum hmesha ek option lekr chlte h ki agr kch b galat hua toh kya ho gya breakup toh hai hi breakup kr lenge..feeling khtm kr lenge...frnds asli prblm ye option hi hai..maan lijiye khaskar ladkiya ki aaj jis baat pe aap apne bf ko chor deti ho kya itni hi asani se kl ko aap apne husband ko chor doge bilkul nhi...kya maa baap ko chor dege bilkul nhi...or chor b diya toh wo ek baar pyar se khenge aap wapas aa jaoge...
Aap sbse ek sawal or bht valid sawal h en rishto me q nhi breakup or feelings khtm ho jana aise concept hote hai..
Let imagine baap ne bete ko thappad mara bete ne kha baap i want breakup suna h kbhi aisa nhi na...fir us pyare rishte me aap q leke aa jate ho jo aapne khud bnaya h...agr wo rishta ek makan h toh uski ek eit eit aapne khud lgayi hai...
Hum sb khte h society es relationship ko galat smjhti h lekin hume smjhna pdega prblm hum me hi hai..koi maa baap uske bcho ko khush hi dekhna chahte h or unki khushi ke liye wo kch b kr dete h...toh wo es rishte ko galat esliye smjhte h qki hum jo man me phle din se option bna kr baidhe h feelings khtm kr lene ka..maa baap darte h kya pta kis din aaye or khey wo rishta khtm kr diya maine...aap sbko ek suggestions h chahe kch b ho jaye apne man se chije khtm krne ka option hta kr dekho tb dekhna life kitni easy ho jati h...jb pyar ke bdle pyar toh gusse ke bdle gussa hi hona chahiye....hum log khud esko ganda bna dete h ye keh ke ki ab wo feelings ni rhi....mera ye view h ki agr maine kisi se pyar kiya h toh last tk krunga chahe wo sath ho ya na ho..
" Ye sb likhne ka sirf ek reason es bhul ki wajah se mai apni life ka sbse pyara rishta toh nhi bcha paya lekin aap sb readers se hath jod ke request h apna rishta bcha lena..rishte bazar me nhi milte h qki...mai haar gya hu lekin jo jo es ko pdh kr jeetega mjhe uski jeet me khud ki jeet nazar aaegi..

Aaj jb mai bimar tha toh umeed tha ki ek no. Hoga aisa jo mjhe baar fone fone krega preshan hoga mere liye...lekin jis insan se mai ye chah rha tha usne kiya b ....lekin na jane q aaj uske preshan hone me wo baat nhi thi..wo mza nhi tha...ha agr mai galat hu toh maaf krna...whi dusri traf ek aisa insan tha jisko mai nhi mna rha tha ki fone krey us insan ko b pta tha ki wo meri phli priority nhi h fir b usne aisa dikhaya ki mai uski phli priority...or mai uske liye likh rha hu usko toh ye b ni btaunga....khair ye difference of priority ho skti h..
Ek insan ne thoda sa dikhaya usey chinta h meri or ek insan ne bht dikhaya fir b mjhe intzar us thode se care ki thi...mere liye uski value bht jada thi....or shyd yhi hoti h feelings....bs yhi...

Now let stop the ridha....let move towards more concrete things...
Aaj metro me aa rha tha toh maine kisi ko ye khte hue suna ki yr uska pyar alag tha eska alag h...after hearing this a question arised in mah mind and that is "really the defination of love is subjective?...like is it really change from person to person...
So now let find the defination of love....
According to google, love is intense feeling of deep affection..now let try to understand this...
Like google is saying love is affection..like u r attached to someone deeply...fir ek question mind me aata h ki ek kutte se affection or ek insan se affection same hota h like...ki mai apne pet se pyar kru apni gf se pyar kru dono same hoga.. Obviously not... Obviously i will be more attached to my gf..so whats the thing which create the diffrence...
So i think affection is wrong term to describe love....
Ek baar meri gf ne ek letter me likha tha aaj hum, mai or tum se hum ho gye..ha sunne me ye bollywood dialogue lgta h...bt let understand ki wo kya khna chahti thi..she want to say ki aaj indiffrence ho gya h..tum me or mjhme..actually she is little bit correct..i think it is true love ki jb mai sochu ki.." ek pratha bcha hua h wo kha le ya mai kha lu koi frk ni pdta..mere account me kch paise h wo uspe khrch ho ya mjhpe koi frk ni pdta..koi mjhe galat khey aansu uske nikle..usko momos khilane ko metro card bechne chley jaye..paise na hone pr bhi utna hi khush rhay..mai success hou apni life me khushi usey miley...stage pe taali mjhe miley..kandhe uske unche ho jaye...so she was correct...aapko ye likhi hui chije impractical lg rhi hongi bt aisa hota h nd m saying that from my experience..it is love..jb tera mera bhul jao sirf hmara bolo...it is love jb aapki gf ko babu se jada bcha sunna psnd ho...so creating indiffrence between two people is love..

Authors view...
According to me love is little more den hum ho jana...ye hai kyi mauko pr khud ko bhul kr samne wale ki khushi dekhna...agr aap khud ko kisi or ke liye change kr skte ho toh wo true love...hai...or wo bs ek baar hi hoga..qki human species me agr ek insan kisi se sbse jada pyar krta h toh wo h khud se..insan khud ko bht chahta h bht jada..lekin fir b wo kisi or ke liye khud ko bdlne ko tyaar ho jata h toh whi hota h love...or insan aisa baar baar esliye ni kr skta qki khud ko bdlna muskil hota h namumkin hota hai..
For example koi aapka gussa seh rha h toh wo aapse bht pyar krta h..aisa nhi h wo aapse darta h balki wo ye sochta h ki gussa kr rha h toh kya hua pyar b toh mjhse krta h...thoda deep h smjhne ki koshish krta...
 Suppose do log h x and y..maan lo kisi moment pe x ne gussa kiya y pe...y ko pta h x ki galti h usey es baat pe gussa ni krna chahiye bt fir bhi y accept krta h baat ko qki wo ye manta h ki x hi h jisne mjhse bht pyar kiya hai..or fact ye jb wo ye maan rha hota h toh bhi usey hurt ho rha hota h..bt fir wo sochta h es chot pe malham bhi x hi lgaega..khud ko niche gira kr kisi or ko khush dekhna hi pyar hota h..
Chahe wo gussa sehna ho ya kisi ka aapke liye rona ho(qki rona kisi ke liye khi na khi kamjori mani jati h ek insan ki lekin agr wo aapni kamjori b dikhane ko tyar h toh wo es baat se nhi dar rha h ki aap niche gir rhay ho esliye wo pyar hai..)
Koi apna ego gira de kisi ke liye wo hi pyar hai..sb ho fir b wo yaad rhay wo pyar hai..
Jb wo seedhiyo pe ladkhada jaye or aapki cheekh nikal jaye wo pyar hai...
Aapko chot lgey or jb jb aap ki chis ki aawaz nikle samne wale ka b gala bhar jaye wo pyar hai..
Wo kitni hi galtiya kr de aap gussa ho lekin fir b uske liye khade ho toh wo pyar hai..
Aap apna religion bhul jao uske liye wo pyar hai..
Khair author is being emotional so let stop it here...
Ha bs pyar dene ka naam hota h selfish hone ka nhi...or kamal ki chij ye h agr dono insan ye chij soche toh in the end dono ka fayada hoga...
Pyar bandhna nhi sikhata hai...or mjhse kisi ne kha ki koi kisi ki jaagir ni hoti mai manta hu...wo bilkul shi tha...plz give respect to ur love or ye b apne experience se keh rha hu..ab tk aap sbko lga hoga i m a perfect guy..bt sry to say m the one who loose the perfect love jst caz of my stupidity...
Ha ek or chij pyar sch me ek baar hi hota hai...aap keh se ek hi chij jisey aap jb past me thay usey perfect smjh ke krte thay whi chij dobara kisi or ke sath kaise perfect feeling ke sath kr skte h..
Love is pure...purity bs ek baar hoti h..
 Yah i loose my perfect one...nd i dnt want anyone...its fact....nd it suggestion to all readers after breakup agr aap move on ho b gye ho toh b man se move on mat ho..kisi ko yaad krke krke rona jada acha h in compare kisi or se fake pyar kr lena..
 Waiting for ur suggestions or comments...

A beautiful journey started

Ye khani sirf do logo ki hai ridha or meri..baki sbhi log background me hai..

Election ka time tha jb mai phli baar us bholi si...4 aankho wali ladki se rubroo hua tha..mai election lad rha tha...mere liye wo matr ek vote tha mera...jaise mai or logo se baat krta tha apne vote ke liye waise hi usse bhi..qki wo meri classmate thi toh mera vote bank rupi cheeni kaise dosti ke paani me ghulne lga pta hi na chla...

Jee haa..wo chappal phne...badrangi rang ke suit salwar..or wo baba aadam ke jmane ka chasma..purn roop se typical bhartiya musalman ab meri dost bn chuki thi..

Hum dono ek dusre ke bilkul viprit(opposite) thay..wo kashmere gate ki shareef ladki mai adarsh nagar ka hawabaaz...wo clg ki chup chup ladki mai clg ka neta..wo bilkul gaay ladki mai delhi ka chalak londa..

Khair bht chije alag thi bs ek chij same tha wo tha "kamla market se le krke kashmere gate tk ka dtc bus ka safar"

Ye safar hi toh tha jisne en do opposite pole ko aapas me baandh rkha tha..

Khair ridha ke karan hi dheere dheere mai muslim parivesh me dhalne lga tha..mjhe "la illaha ill allah muhamadoor rasool allah" ka matlab smjh aane lga tha..

Ridha ke karan hi mera hye salam me bdlne lga tha..

Ab ridha or mai ache dost bn gye thay..hindu muslim dosti ki khani ek alag khani likhne ko tyaar thi..

Phli baar clg me koi apna sa lgne lga tha..mai bolta tha wo sunti thi..shyd usey mjhe sunna psnd tha..
Election mai haar gya lekin shyd bhto ke dil jeet gye tha..bhto ko umeed de gya tha..ridha ne mjhe fir se yakeen dilaya ki mai acha hu..mjhme bhi bht khoobiya hai..ab ridha meri bht achi dost thi..shyd sbse achi...
Wo bht bholi si thi..wo ye pyar waigairh me vishwas ni rkhti thi...mtlb ek sharif ladki ki perfect example.
Hum ache dost thay sb shi chal rha tha bs fir...
19 November 2015 ye wo din tha jb hum sb frnds tradefair gye thay..sb sath thay sb shi tha...bt dheere dheere sb ek ek krke ghar jane lgey or chor gye bs mjhe or ridha ko..pta ni kya hua mjhe sch me ni pta...achanak se mere hath uske hatho ki traf bdh pdey maine uska hath pkda...ye bht ajeeb tha..maine aisa q kiya nhi janta bt jo jada ajeeb tha ki usne hath ni htaya...ye jada ajeeb tha..bs kch smjh ni paya q hua kaise hua...bs sb acha lga...ridha toh thi hi bholi ghabra gyi or ghar jane ki zidd krne lgi...hum ghar chley gye...bs dar tha us din shyd aaj maine apna dost kho diya...

Hey first time i writing on it...even it is motivated,inspired by a person...
Waise toh bht baar likha hai..lekin aise officially first time...
Aap es blog me real life experiences dekh skte ho...jisko aap apne aap se obviously apne aap se related kr paoge...

Well ye first post h us insan ke liye jiska meri life pe bht impact rha hai...to the person who is very close to my heart ...yah uh all are guessing right..

Hey i m confessing here that u r always my first priority....yes i do love uh..yes u loved me a lot in past...well now things are changed...may be u r changed...
"Hahha yes aaj hum "hum se..mai or tum bn gye"...chije bht badal gyi h lekin nhi bdla h toh meri priority mera love...aaj bhi...
Wo barish ki bunde jb mjhe chu kr jati h toh tumhara hi ahsas krati hai..
Tumhare sang bitaya har ek pal ek zindagi lgti hai..
Aaj dobara se ek or zindagi jeene ka jee krta hai..
Tumse fir se whi sb khne ko jee krta hai..
Hu mai laalchi esliye tumhe har pal paane ko jee krta hai...
Wo khti h kshitiz kch ni rha phle jaisa...
Mai khta hu meri aankho se dekho tu toh ab bhi phle jaisi hi hai..
Wo khti h chije bht badal gyi hai...
Mai khta hu koi ni fir chije badal denge..
Wo khti h kshitiz ab baat ni krni.....
Mai bs has bhar deta hu...
Wo khti h ab nhi milna tumse....
Mai bs chup chap aankho se barish kr deta hu...
Ho skta h tumko ye b na psnd aaye...
Khogi aage bdho kshitiz....
Lekin us "ridha" ka kya kru jo har pal rok deti h mjhe..
Aaj juban chup ho chuki kl shyd ungliya b bolna chor de...
Sb khtm ho gya..baki b ho jaega...bs reh jaega "bolna"
Ha thoda dukhi hota hu jb apni choti ungli ko akela dekhta hu..
Thoda dukhi hota hu jb mai "sher" galat pdhta hu toh koi sudharne wala ni hota..
Ha thoda dukhi hota hu jb aaj kl jeans phen pata hu...

Kash sb shi ho pata...meri choti ungli ko uska sathi mil jata..speaker ko shayara mil jata..mjhe bcha mil jata...fir bolna pe koi sath rone wala mil jata..fir koi emotional song send krne wala mil jata..koi zidd krne wala mil jata..selfie le leke preshan krne wala mil jata...koi irritate krne wala mil jata..

Kash bs wo mil jata hum toh sb chorne ko tyar baidhe thay...kash wo ek baar or bharosha kr jata ..kash wo aankhe bnd kr mera chehra imagine kr pata...bs sb hota ye kash bs kash na reh jata...

Tumhare liye h esliye bs ...wo bhi ek daur tha jb hum sda paas thay....bs...