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The last blog(may be)

The final one.....

Ahhh...sometimes in life uh have to take those desicion...which uh never want to take...but u r forced to take those desicions...
I m in too dillemma in my life right now...chije day by day khrab hi Hoti gyi..or aaj khud ki chije khrab hone ka reason Mai khud Ko Maan rha hu...Mai Maan rha hu ki Mai reasons hu chijo ke khrab hone ka...Khair ab mera maanna na maanna SB ek hai...aaj Lekin khud se promise Kiya hai ki pehle wala kshitiz bnna hai...pehle wali chije krni hai....or koshish krni hai khush rkh sku sbko....

Ye most probably mera last blog h life ka..until unless kch bht important ho...so aaj kisi se koi shikayat Ni...

Qki aaj life ki Kyi sachai Bhari batey sunne Ko Mili...chije dekhne Ko Mili...kisi or Ko selfish keh ke last me khud Ko selfish paya...duniya Ko Shi raste pe laane wala Mai aaj khud hi Shi raste pe Ni aa pa rha hai...ab Lekin kisi se koi shikayat Ni hai....sbki jitne bhi log h meri life me...unke duara ki Hui chijo ke liye thank uh..nd meri taraf se sry...

Baki ek nayi dost aai h zindagi me...jo mera khyal rkhti hai..jo Mai rota hu toh saath roti hai...aapka Dil se thx...shyd AAP Na hote toh Na Jane Abhi kya hota mera...aapka ahsaan zindagi bhar Ni bhulunga...aapne mujhe us samay sambhala jis time mere saath koi khada Ni reh paya...

Baki kisi ke Dil me agr mere liye kuch Gilley shikwe ho toh maaf krna...aaj life ke ek Nye stage me kadam rkhne ja rha hu fir se life ke saath kch nya...kch alag krne ja rha hu so AAP logo ke dua ki zruat pdegi...

Love uh all....my readers...for the love uh had given me....

And ya in the last but obviously never be the least...it's for uh... whenever uh will any sort of help u r always welcome....aapne sach me ahsaan h mjhpe bht....

Bubbye....will try my fingers now to not write anything ...

Plz give me enough strength

Sometime in life aap itne problem me hote hai..itne preshan hote hai..ki bs aap chahte ho ki koi aaye or bs aapke kandhe pe ek tap krke puche ki kya ho gya...dnt wry sb thik ho jaega...bs itna kehna wale ho...

Or problem or shikayat sirf bhagwan se hai ki itni problem ek saath q de di saath...q life me wha la kr khada kr diya h ki jha se ray of hope nazar hi ni aa rhi...itni choti age me itni bdi zimmedariya ni nibhayi jati hai...

Kch ni kr pata hu esliye bs blog likh ke khud ko sukoon pahucha leta hu...bs ek saathi h lekin wo saathi khud hi dikkat me hai....usse saath lene me dil selfish sa lgta hai...bs jo b padhey plz mjhe pity feel mt krwana puch ke...bs upar wale se dua kr lena..ki mjhe takaat de en situations se ladne ka..

Sb thik ho jaega i know....

Qki mjhe hi thik krna h sb..

Dnt know whats happening

Sometimes we feel that we r going through life most bad phase and in the present time of my life m feeling the same thing...bt life is incomplete with out the problems..so whenever u r in problem just be chill...
And dnt wry if uh have to face these problems all alone..koi ni upar wala sb dekhta hai...

Nd whoever is reading this post plz ye mt pray krna ki meri jo b problems wo thik ho jaye plz ye pray krna ki bhagwan mjhe takaat de enhe face krne ki..yesterday was one of the worst day of my life....

Itna bura ki kisi karan se kl mjhe 5 bje tk jaagna pda..nd thank uh mere saath itni der tk jagne ke liye..mjhe har wqt pump up krne ke liye...well just keep yourself motivated this all i want to say to my readers

Best ever written

Hey m feeling very good when i think that i shud write something for uh.

Heyeah sehrish..you know one thing we had a great time together...jo hum dono se koi nhi chin skta..sehrish life ka kch ni pta hota...kb kya ho jaye...lekin hume strong rehna chahiye har wqt..hum kisi karan ki wajah se alag hue...chije khrab hui bht chije hui..lekin ek chij aaj b achi h ki..meri likhi hui chij tum aj b excited ho ke pdhti ho..mai b tumhare blog me dundhta hu ki kon si line achi likhi h..kon si line mere bare me hai..aaj b jb mjhe kch hota hai toh tumhe tension hoti hai...or tum khaas b deti ho toh mjhe tension ho jati hai...hum aaj b ek dusre ko batna ni chahte...mjhe ni pta ye sb kya hai...agr ye sb pyar hai...toh mjhe sharm ni ati ye kehte hue ki haan mjhe toh pyar hai...

Sehrish tum khti ho na tum intellectual nhi ho lekin maine toh hmesha es bodam ladki se hi pyar kiya hai...mjhe kya kha ab blame krna bnd kro...sehrish dnt wry na kbhi kisi ke aage tumhe galat saabit hone diya hai or na hi kbhi hone dunga..

Or haan ab schi bs esliye dur jana h qki jaan mai bht thak gya...maine apni zindagi ke important 8 months esme diye hai...lekin kch b acha ni hua balki khrab hi hua h..so bs frustrated ho gya hu bs esliye m saying ki i quit...wrna tum kya ho mere liye wo mjhe kisi ko prove krne ki jruat ni hai..

Aap kehte ho na dil me nhi rhi chije ab ...toh i respect your feelings toh mai aaj aapko wo chij de rha hu jo aapko chahiye..bs ap khush rehna hmesha...

Sehrish i still missing ki tum subah ghar se niklti thi or mjhe call krti thi ki ab nikal rhi hu yha ja rhi hu or fir ghar wapas jate time msg krti thi...wo b chehre pe ek smile ke saath...khusbi khushi saari chije btati thi...mjhse puchti thi kshitiz ye kr lu..ye kr lu...mjhe cold tk hota tha toh itna preshan ho jati thi jaise mjhe cancer ho gya ho..toh sehrish mere liye bhi toh ye chije precious thi...sirf mai tumhari adat ni tha tum bhi meri aadat thi..
Tum toh keh deti ho aa kr har baar ki maine tumse bht pyaar kiya hai...kbhi us charm wale kshitiz ke bare me socha hai jisko front gate se back gate pe jane me 40 min lg jate thay...jo life me kisi ko koi value ni deta tha..us insan ne tumse kitna pyaar kiya hai..usne kitni hi koshish ki tumhe special feel krwane ki..usne kaise pichle saal 19nov ko tumhe jbrdsti tradefair le ke gua tha...usne kaise anniversary pe tumhare liye chije plan ki thi tumhare psnd ki har chij wo leke aaya tha tumhare liye...kaise sirf tumhari zidd puri krne ke liye ice skating krwayi...toh ab socho us charm wale insan ne kitna pyar kiya hoga tumse...aaj b wo tumhare saath tumhara admission krwane gya tha..job pe frst day gya tha...toh socho kitna pyar maine kiya hoga...ha plz ye mt smjhna maine chije ginwayi..lekin haa maine b bht kiya..bs ab ni rha sch me kch bhi...koi ni bt tum fir b khaas rhogi hmesha....

M sorry for my every mistake...what i did..haan bs sch me chaha tha kbhi maine ki hum dono fir se saath ho jaye...fir se sari chije pehli jaisi ho jaye nhi hui koi ni..

Just listen sehrish ansari this kshitiz ranjan loved uh a lot...this speaker love a lot shayara...

Ab nhi rhi schi dil me wo chije uska reason kch tum ho...shyd thoda mai or shyd wqt bhi...haan ptani q aaj b dil dukh jata jb tum jhut bol deti ho(aapko toh pta hi h jhut se kitni nafrat hai mjhe)

Khair meri zindagi bht acha time thay tum bht chije khrab kri h tumne(blame smjho ya kch bhi) lekin usse khi jada pyaar kiya tumne mjhse esliye tumhe mai hmesha achi memories me hi yaad krunga...

Tum jha b rho khush rho or dnt wry mai toh khush reh hi lunga ..dil me bs ek chij ka malal rhega sch me...ki breakup ke baad maine itni koshish kri chije shi krne ki lekin meri sehrish ne mera ek baar saath ni diya chije shi krne me....koi ni...

Chlo lo safar khtm ho gya ab...

 Kch lines for uh..qki meri kamjori h ki mai aaj b sirf tumhare liye hi likh skta hu...

"Wo ungli bdi sharmayi thi jb esne unko chua tha...
Wo ladki bht ghabrayi thi jb usey mjhse pyar hua tha...
Thodi sehmi si thi ...jb wo es khubsoorat safar me sang mere aai thi..
Gussa-pyar...barish dhup sb usne sang jhelha tha...
Paisa na hone par, bhuk nhi h aisa usne kha tha...
5 momos ke khatir metro card bechne ye babu chla gya tha...
Bche ke khatir pendent bhi ye le aaya tha...
Apne gulaab ko ye aksar gulaab dene lg gya tha...
Wo deewani b apna sb kch luta gyi es deewane pe...
Paglo ki trah pagal bnti rhi wi es deewane ki...


Phir wo ghadi aati hai..
Mjhse alag hone ko kha jata hai. Saanse ruk jati hai....
Wo bhi roti hai...mai bhi rota hu..lekin us din bhi hmesha ki trah mai hi jeetta hu...

Dheere dheere bcha babu shona ki khani khtm hone lgti hai...
Deewana fir se ek koshish krta hai...
Lekin na jane q deewani es baar bht dar si jaati hai...


Aaj deewani thodi bdal si gyi hai...
Lekin ye dewaana aaj b usey khaas hi smjhta hai..

Deewana fir se khoyi hui ungliyo ko pana chahta tha .
Apna haath khi tikana chahta tha ...
Bs fir se deewana bn jana chahta tha....


Khair its always loving to write something for uh ...bye...have a nyc life ahead...

Nothing to say

You know this sort of mail means a lot to me...or aaj toh bht dino baad tumne mjhe koi khushkhabri sunai apne bare me...papa thik ho jaenge or behter ho jaenge jldi hi...

Or tumne aaj request kri blog likhne ko so m writing this...bs mai itna hi khna chahunga tumhara ye mail mere liye bht important hai...mere liye bht matter krta hai...mere liye ye matter krta h ki jo insan kbhi kisi ke liye kch ni krti thi aaj wo mere liye itni mehnat kr rhi hai...papa ki tbyit khrab hone ke babjood bhi..mere cat ke exam me meri help kr rhi ho..meri english(jo sbse bda drd h mere cat me)..usey imporve krne ke liye roz search kr ke kch na kch bhejhti ho jisse mjhe exam me help miley..so its feel good...ki koi kr rha hai kch..baki congratulations papa or behter ho jaemge..nd aaj mood acha ni h so jada ni likh paunga...

Aap sb invited ho meri tariff krne ko

When you got this sort of mail from someone..you feel urself to be special one..aise hi rhay or aise hi meri tariff krte rhay aise hi mere bare me dua krte rhay..khushi hoti h tumhare aise mail pdh ke..or esko public krne ka ek hi reason h ki mere readers pta kr skey ki hmari b koi tarif krta hai..

Note:- ye kisi vyakti vishesh ke liye ni lgya gya hai

Anonymous writing(mtlb kch bhi😋)

Dil gusse me hai aaj...(ye statement aapne pehli baar suni hogi lekin aisa hota hai...aisa tb hota hai jb aap dil itna dukh gya ho ki ab jb pta chlta h ki dil dukh rha h toh khud pe gussa aata hai..ye whi phase hota hai)

Toh bs yhi hai..life ka present ka situation..khel ho gya h sb..ab chah kr b chije shi ni ho paengi...or na hi dil waisa rha hai ab..saala zindagi me bs ek match ho gya...kbhi jeet rha hu kbhi haar rha hu...

Khair life me aise phase me hu jha blog likhna sbse acha lgta h aisa lgta hai esse bda mera koi saathi nhi h..ye hai jo mjhe smjhta h ache se so bs esliye blog likh deta hu...haan ab logo ne cmnt krna chor diya h actually sbhi readers se request hai cmnt krey either it is positive or negative qki usse ek alag hi motivation milti h likhne ki..

Pta hai aaj life me ek chij realise hui kisi ko maaf krne se jaada  khushi kisi chij me ni milti..chahe kisi ne kitni hi bdi galti q na ki ho aap usey maaf kr do or bhul kr ek nya start kro..esse jada khushi kisi chij me ni milti...ab maine b logo ko maaf kr diya unki galtiyo ke liye...or khud ko acha lg rha hai..ab nind aati h ache se...

Hum humans ki khasiyat hai ki hume chijo se attachment hoti hai..logo se attachment hoti hai...kbhi es attachment hume khud ki kamjori ni smjhni chahiye qki hum humans bne hi kisi se attached hone ke liye hai...

Yakeen kijiye jo mza kisi ke na hone pr uske liye rone me aata hai wo mza kbhi uske hone ki khushi ke mze se kam nhi hota....rona kisi ke liye bdi chij hoti hai...or mere accordingl rona ek aisi chij hai jo insan ko insan bnaye rkhne me madad krti hai..

Nd last chij we shud have fear of the things what we r doing..dar hmesha rehna chahiye dil me chijo ka...so guys kamjor bney...jrur roye. .insan ko insan smjhay...ek time ka phase mt smjhay ki nikal jaega...or apne karmo se jrur darey..

Baki mai hmesha pyar ke bare me likhta hu toh pyar jrur krey...pyar manushya ki bnayi hui wo pratima hai jo anant hai..jiska koi end nhi hai....hum esko anubhav kr chuke hai bht hi acha hota hai...lekin ye dhyan rkhna esme end me kasht b bht hai or wo b aapko hi jhelne honge...mai khush hu ki maine esko dono phase already dekh liye😑

Note:- kbho bhi motivation ki kami lgey kisi b chij ke liye toh jrur sampark krey...

Bad time fade away

Amm...sometimes i just need ki mai kch likh du..sometimes i feel like there is nothing better in this world rather than writing..

Life is not a game guys...jiska jb dil aata hai chla jata hai jb dil aata hai aa jata..well everything happens for a good reason..
Well prerna uh used to send me mails which i thing became too necessary for me nowadays....so plz keep sending them..

Everybody came to me and say that you are strong enough to handle any situation...even some says me fighter...i dont know that either i m strong or not but no bdy has the right to let me feel down...

Well leavinh this apart actually its reply to ur mail...what uh said that m ur pillar..no dear....the thing uh came as positive energy in my life..uh once again lighten up my dull life...kisi ko nhi psnd aata akela rehna its human tendency...

Tere papa ki tbyit thik ni hai..lekin uh know one thing unhe kbhi b maine apne papa se alag smjha hi ni. So unhe toh thik hona hi pdega...

Today uh came to me nd said that uh will die agr unhe kch ho jata hai toh...toh ab toh mere paas koi option hi ni bcha...ab unhe kaise bhi thik krna hi pdega...nd one more thing be strong esliye ni ki mai auro ki trah bs ye khunga sb thik ho jaega balki esliye ki "mai hu na...mai sb thik kr dunga...kaise i dont know..but have some faith on me...ki mai papa ko kch ni hone dunga..i promise.."....or aaj toh aunty ko b ye promise kr diya maine...

Tu toh meri motivation hai yr...jb mere apne khaas logo ne mera bilkul saath chor diya..mjhe bilkul akela chor diya..tb tu ne mjhe sambhala hai..tu ne mjhe motivate kiya zindagi ko or behter tarike se jeene ke liye...abi toh bht kch seekhna hai tere se yr...

Prerna mai beshak mai tjhse age me thoda sa bda hu...lekin mjhe bda teri bato ne hi kiya hai..mai kaise bhul jau ye whi ladki hai ki jb meri tbyit khrab thi toh 4 bje raat tk sirf mera man behlane ke liye mjhse baat krti thi....
Mai ye kaise bhul jau...ki jb mere 12th ke boards thay tu raat bhar bs esliye jaagi rhti thi ki khi mai na so jau...

Mjhe khi subah jana hota tha toh tu usse aadha ghanta pehle uth jati thi ki khi mera wo important kaam miss na ho jaye..tu aadha ghanta pehle uth ke mjhe uthati thi...

Mai kaise bhul jau sirf mjhse milne ke liye subah 5 bje morning walk pe aa jati thi..mjhe khana bnana sikhati thi...
Or jb aaj hmare papa ki tbyit khrab h toh mai agr kch kr rha hu toh wo ahsaan nhi ho skta...

Zindagi me bht time baad mili ho ye b ni pta kb tk rhogi ni rhogi..kya hoga aage ni pta so kr lene do...or dont wry mai tumhari wajah se preshan nhi hu...balki tumne toh usse samay mjhe thama jb mai bht preshan tha.   Or agr aaj preshan hu b toh tu ne itni energy de di h ki i can handle that....

Ha life ne mjhe personally bht kch sikhaya h pichle kch months me nd mai obviously usko carry forward krunga apni entire life ke liye.. Obviously un experience ne mera behavior for entire life change kr diya hai but koi ni..on every single second of ur life uh keep learning the things ...so i m still learning a lot from past....

Baki it was the reply of your todays mail..which uh send to me..yha esliye likh deta hu ki thode paise mil jate hai...

Baki keep smiling always..and dnt worry i will be always with uh whenever uh need me..

A nyc day

Hey its always being nyc time with uh..its on ur demand m writing something abt today..uh know its alwz nyc meeting to uh..uh alwz let me feel completed ..but uh know onething once again today uh gave me lot of positivity...lots of motivation..
We had a good bond...nd we have a good bond..nd dnt let urself be weak...or rone ka department mera h so let me cry...


Nd its really very specl ki jis chij ko tumne aaj se aaj se around 5 saal phle kha tha ki mai es ko faik dungi or mjhe yakeen tha ki faik dogi aaj tum us chij ko sambhal kr layi thi...

Uh know bht km log h es duniya me jo mjhe smjhte h nd uh r one of them...uh know mai duniya ko advice deta hu...but tumse advice leta hu...or tum mjhe hmesha motivate krti ho chijo ke liye...kshitiz ranjan ko The kshitiz ranjan bnne me help krti ho..
Today uh again motivate me for my cat....or jin logo ko galat smjh rha tha unhe shi smjhne ka way b dikhaya...uh know life me bht prblms hoti h sbke tunhare b hai mere b h...or shyd sbke hi hoti h..bt i just wanna thank uh and that atleast i got a support system in form of uh..sometimes life changes very gradually..whatever today i m..uh had a great role in that ..nd ya its not show off ki mai ye sb likh rha hu its just m being emotional that uh came at the right time...meri toh qki kbhi koi himmat hi ni ho pati fir se call krne ki .

Pta h tumhare aate hi sb kch aankho ke samne aa gya...bs ab jaada kch ni h khne ko..or ha tumhari poem sch me achi thi..qki bht km logo ne mere liye likha h nd i know ki kisi ke liye koi poem likhna kitna muskil or kitni bdi baat hoti h..qki maine bhi bht likhi h...

I dont what relation we have...but whatever it is...its very unique....nd yaah uh sing very well...baki as uh know i dont like or believe in publisity of anything...so m writing these kind of stuffs for the last time...
Baki mjhe aise hi khushiya dete rhte...

Uh was u r nd u will.....spcl....
Nd ya last but not the least thx for the poem uh had written...


Nd i hope uh remember these lines..

"Kch es tarah teri palke meri palko se mila du.....""

Happy diwali

First of all a very happy diwali to all. This festival is always very close to me...but this year it come up with more happiness...

Koi bht khaas rutha hua saathi wapas aa gya...yes u r...uh know teri wajah se mere 12th me km marks aaye thay...but still i love my 12th class most..

 Ur voice alwz meant a lot to me...pta h fone change ho gya wrna wo recording teri voice aaj b rhti mere paas...

Nd tears doesnt suits uh...ye mjhpe hi behter lgte h...

Pta h logo ne mjhe bht compliment diya h ki like " if today m speaking like this or writing then kshitiz u r the reason behind that...juniors ne b kha bhaiya aap se bolna likhna apna stand lena bht kch seekha h bht logo ne compliment diya h.."

Now its my turn..uh know u r the reason that i can speak in front of anyone..that i can write today...logo ne mjhse seekha ya ni nhi pta lekin maine tjhse bht kch seekha tha...jb mai 12th me tha i used to learn ki kaise koi dosti nibhayi jati h...nd bla bla..

Haan hmare bich bht chije khrab hui bht jada but still tjhse seekha tha aaj b apna rha hu...still remember ur words "koi rishta kitna hi khrab q na ho jaye...usey chorna nhi chahiye...usme saans bharte rhna chahiye...or haarna toh bilkul ni chahiye"

Exact yhi lines thi na...

"Pta h these r the lines jo mjhe haar nhi manne deti thi...haan life me kyi bht khaas jgaho pe haar bhi gya bht baar...dukh b haar ka lekin koshish bht ki thi maine..."

Khair a literall very happy diwali to uh..

Chije jitni marji khrab ho gyi ho hmare bich lekin jb tu ne us din bhi mere papa ko uncle na keh ke yhi pucha ki "papa kaise h " toh lga bond kbhi ni khtm hota h bs uspe ek ice jm jati h usey todni hoti h..

Pta h my close ones  know that i loved my father a lot ..but they dont know the reason y i loved him a lot..mjhe b ni pta tha ki mai q krta hu..but then i realised ki q krta hu...

The reason is "bcz uh loved ur father a lot"(this statement is enough to prove that how important uh was to me).

People loves me today

They admire me..

They take lots of things from me...

And without any dought i can say ye kshitiz naam ke computer ki programming toh tu ne hi ki thi...beshak baad me file ko format kr diya ho...lekin sirf tjhe lga ki wo delete ho gya bt wo toh recycle bin me chla gya tha...

Well lakshmi ka nhi pta lekin es diwali mere ghar krishna jrur aaye h...

    " Welcome back.." 

My sprite partner....

Nd ya waiting for ur next song...